Before I begin this blog post, I’d like to let you know that this is quite a personal thing for me to write, but I wanted to share this with you as I’m hoping that if you’re reading this as a panic attack sufferer, I may help you in some way. Alternatively, if you are reading this and you know someone who suffers with panic attacks, I hope I can help you get a better understanding and display ways in which you can show support.

Anxiety is an awful emotion to feel, a feeling that cannot be controlled & you are unaware of it creeping up on you. Different levels of anxiety lie in all of us all the time. From a simple thing like “Oh no, I’ve got school/work tomorrow” to something a lot more nerve wracking like a scary job interview or waiting for your appointment at the dentist (I know I’m not the only one). Although anxiety lies in all of us, It affects people in different ways. When we’re stressed, our anxiety levels are much higher and some of us become a lot more sensitive to it. For those of you who are calm, collected and pretty fearless, you will have a much lower anxiety threshold. (I am jealous
of those of you who are like this)

Extremely high levels of anxiety, can, in a lot of people, cause panic attacks, whether you are aware of your anxiety or not.

I’ve suffered with panic attacks for 6 and a half years, and so i’m writing this blog post for those of you who struggle to understand, feel alone, need advice or need someone else to understand.

It’s understandable that not everybody “gets” what a panic attack is. In fact i’m pretty sure more people don’t understand than do, which is really sad. Even some of the people closest to me, struggle to understand exactly how it affects me, or my life, or some decisions that I choose to make. Even after hours of explaining, unless someone has been through a panic attack themselves, they will never truly or fully understand.

What exactly is a panic attack?

A sudden feeling of dread, the sudden urge to push your way through to the nearest exit, the whole room shrinking down around you and everybody staring at you and smothering you. In a split second, without you anticipating it, or knowing it’s going to happen, your body releases adrenaline. This adrenaline is released as your body is preparing for “flight or fight”. Something our brain is programmed to do in a life or death situation. You need adrenaline for a fight in order to be strong, and you need adrenaline for flight, in order to run fast and get away. This would have prepared our cave-dwelling ancestors to fight or run away from danger, but it’s much less appropriate to the stresses we encounter today. Clearly, we are not cavemen any more, and we don’t need to hunt for our food, but this adrenaline is released in situations like tripping over a step, being extremely excited, being on a roller-coaster, being in a fight, In an accident, adrenaline is released into our bodies all the time, but us panic attack sufferers

My doctor said: “You are like the car in the street, who’s alarm goes off with the smallest gust of wind, whereas all the other cars, take a good beating before their alarms go off”, and really, that’s the best way it can be described in the very simplest of terms.

What happens during a panic attack?

Adrenaline is released, thus causing your heart to beast faster, and your muscles to tense. We breathe in more oxygen, which our muscles use to turn sugar into energy (even though we don’t need extra energy for anything), Blood is diverted to the muscles, making you pale and light headed. This also causes you to shake. Our digestive system shuts down, making your throat dry and making you feel sick. Your senses are heightened, you become more aware of sounds and smells around you (It’s like someone turned up the volume, and in a busy place, it was loud enough anyway).
When adrenalin floods your body, it can cause a number of different physical and emotional sensations that may affect you during a panic attack:

These may include:

very rapid breathing or feeling unable to breathe
very rapid heartbeat
pains in your chest
feeling faint or dizzy
ringing in your ears
tingling or numbness in your hands and feet
hot or cold flushes
feeling nauseous
wanting to go to the toilet
feelings of absolute terror
feeling smothered
feeling claustrophobic
being extremely emotional/uncrontrollable crying
feelings of unreality, called depersonalisation and derealisation.

Panic attacks come on very quickly, symptoms usually peaking within 10 minutes. Most panic attacks last for between 5 and 20 minutes. Some people report attacks lasting for up to an hour, but they are likely to be experiencing one attack after another, or a high level of anxiety after the initial attack. This is what I suffer from, If I ever have a panic attack, it will NEVER last 20 minutes, it will always spiral, until I can be alone, somewhere I feel comfortable, which can sometimes be hours away.

I’m not 100% sure what first triggered my panic attacks, although I will explain it below. The only major downfall for me, was that my brain stored this panic attack away so that when I re-entered a similar situation, my body had learnt to react in the same way.

This is the way I like to describe it:

“Imagine that your brain is filled with hundreds of filing cabinets full of different information. You have memories, things you’ve learnt..etc. Well, there is this one filing cabinet that stores every panic attack you have. Where you had it, what happened, who you were with, what you were doing, what you were eating, what you were drinking, everything. When you re-enter the same place, with the same people, or do the same thing, that cabinet unlocks, and releases the same adrenaline, and the same emotion. My brain thinks it’s protecting me, by making me “Fight or flight” in the same situation”

Almost as though your brain has trained itself to react in this way. Which is annoying, and can be undone (more on that later)

For me, this happened in nightclubs, pubs, around drunk people and around alcohol. The reason being that my first major panic attack, was at a house party, in the middle of nowhere, which got completely out of hand. I was with friends but everybody was so drunk that I may aswell have been on my own. I wasn’t drunk, but my then-boyfriend was, and he passed out and fell asleep, leaving me awake, and sober. All my friends were drunk also. Please bare in mind, I was 15, as were most of the people around me, and this was a serious case of irresponsible drinking and drug taking (not on my part i’d like to add). I didn’t know a lot of the people there and I remember this one boy who had diabetes (the more serious type) and everyone was making a massive who-ha about him being VERY drunk. I was trying to sleep in a bedroom with my boyfriend passed out next to me, and another friend had fallen asleep as well, so it was silent, and away from the chaos. The next thing I remember was that I could hear someone violently being sick and lots of people freaking out. The diabetic boy was paraletic, vomming everywhere and needed sugar. Everyone kept running into the room asking me for help, and I didnt have a clue. I remember I kept saying “Give him lemonade, no point giving him food he isn’t keeping anything down”. It was then that I had a massive panic attack. Was it because someone was being sick (I have a phobia of sick – even more so now than back then), was it the chaos and the fact that ambulances arrived or being surrounded by people who were so out of it in a serious situation and being the only one that could see straight. Whatever it was, I lay there from 11.30pm until 5am, having panic attack, after panic attack. Shaking violently. I felt trapped, as the toilet was opposite the bedroom door, and I knew I couldn’t go home because that meant walking past all the comotion and the sick. So I just lay there. trapped and panicking for 5 and a half hours. When it started getting light, and I felt phsyically exhausted (having a panic attack makes you feel like you’ve run a marathon) and I called my dad who kindly came and rescued me.

Now you know why I don’t really drink, and why I’d much rather stay in watching crappy TV than have a night out. Is this how I want to be? No. I’d love to get dressed up, get some heels on, go out and have a few drinks, maybe even get completely sozzled once in a while. This is what girls my age do right?

Even now, when I think back, all those nights I tried my hardest to walk into a club/pub feeling positive that nothing would go wrong, and end up having to run out. I really did try, I tried to put on a brave face and act like nothing would happen & I tried to tell myself it was all in my head
and nothing was dangerous and as long as you don’t think about it, you’ll be fine. But it’s not your choice. I don’t think my friends understood, and in all fairness, I guess I didn’t really explain as I wasn’t sure myself why this kept happening to me. They started off inviting me out lots, and gradually, I’d just end up saying no for the fear of having an attack, until they gave up inviting me all together. This upset me, as I felt as though they probably thought I didn’t want to be there, or maybe they didn’t want me there, who wants a panic attack sufferer as a massive burden on a fun night out? I was missing out, and I hated it because it wasn’t anything I could control.

For a while, I couldn’t even go to a quiet pub for a few drinks. What a boring sod I was. I’d also like to point out, this was around the time we all turned 18 and started “properly going out”. So many things contributed towards my attacks becoming worse. I didn’t want to end up being severly agoraphobic (in serious cases can mean you are affraid to leave the house) so I really did try to force myself, which in some very rare cases, didn’t ever result in me panicking, but then there were always the few incidents where I would feel so much worse, and felt as though I’d taken a back step. My ex boyfriend (different to the first I previously mentioned), used to invite me out with his friends to the pub etc, which I liked, and of course I wanted to socialise with new people and make the effort (being the good girlfriend I am) so I’d go. One of his best friends, who happened to be there a lot of the time, managed to pop himself in my filing cabinet of “things to panic from”. I hope he doesn’t ever read this and feel bad, haha. I once felt panicky, and my ex explained to him that I was panicking (instead of deciding I was more important than a pint and taking me home), and I just sat there, whilst he asked me pointless, patronising questions to try and distract me. (trust me, things like this do not work). I felt like an idiot, like it was some funny game, when really all I wanted to do was leave. That same friend was there on a quiet night out, which resulted in me getting up from the table and walking out without an explanation. The thing that topped it all off though, was the time he got so drunk, he vomited all over himself, then strolled back into the pub for another pint. Again, you will notice a pattern here? Sick. Drunk. Pub. After this, I couldn’t bare to go anywhere with him. He is such a lovely guy too, but I couldn’t control it, whenever he was there, my brain would let me know I was in danger and release the adrenaline.

Something people don’t seem to realise, is that self esteem is seriously dented from suffering these attacks. I still, to this day, think that people judge me, and that they possibly all talk about how weird I am, or how annoying I am for having panic attacks, or even that they may think you make it up, or are using as an excuse. You start to think that you are ruining everyone else’s life around you & have become a nuisance.

I’d turn things down ALL THE TIME, but it’s not because I didn’t want to go, I wanted to go more than anything, I just COULDN’T put myself in any situation where I felt I may have panicked. I’m going to list places I’ve had panic attacks before, as I want to express that they won’t just happen when you anticipate them, but they can literally just spring on you, anywhere…

In bed at night
In a supermarket
In a pub
In a club
In a taxi
On a bus
On a tube
On a train
At the train station
In a restaurant
At a friends house
At a family members house
Boyfriends house
In a car
On a boat
At school
At work

That’s all I can really think of for now, but there have been endless places where I’ve suffered a panic attack. Only when I was at my worst would I walk into a supermarket, or go to someone’s house and panic. More recently, I’ve been a lot better, and I’ve found that I only really panic if I am placed in a situation where I cannot get out easily if I was to ever panic. (Train, Tube, Boat, Work, Club, Bus) More recently, as you will know, I was invited to go on the London eye with GlossyBox, and I cannot tell you how much I stressed over that. It’s my worst nightmare, being inside a glass pod, that’s locked, with lots of people, knowing that once that door closed, I was stuck in there, and if i were to panic, there would be no way of me getting off, and everyone would look at me, and think, what an idiot. Only Louise, and my boyfriend knew how anxious I was about it, but I wanted so desperately to get on it, and to see people, and I did, and I was fine. I was really proud of myself, for not throwing in the towel and missing out on an opportunity, and for doing it anyway. So many people live in fear of ever having an attack, and I think this is what makes life more difficult. For a while, I kept having panic attacks on the tube, and on the train home from London. Being that my boyfriend lives there, this devastated me. WHY WAS MY BRAIN FILING THIS AS A DANGEROUS SITUATION. I would cry, and think “I can’t go. I can’t go and see my boyfriend. I’m scared to get on a train. Why can’t I just be normal“.

One thing a lot of people don’t understand, is that people who suffer panic attacks, DO NOT WANT TO FEEL THIS WAY. We don’t want to get on a train and think “I really hope I get to the other end without panicking”, we don’t want to restrict the way we live because of something we can’t control that leaves us feeling mentally and physically drained for days/weeks/months on end. We want to be normal, and carry on with our everyday lives without any added anxiety. I’d love to be able to say “I don’t worry about anything, besides the normal things”. After a panic attack, I feel so upset, but it’s mostly anger. Angry at myself for not having any control and angry that I don’t know how to make it stop. Then I feel angry because I feel like nobody understands.

What helps me?

When I’m actually having a panic attack, I find the only things that really take the edge off, are going outside, walking away from the place I was and fanning myself (I know this sounds weird, and probably looks it, but when you have so much adrenaline and your muscles are pumped, you should do some form of exercise to use the adrenaline, which is why i frantically fan myself or walk or knock my knees together or flap my arms around – discreet? I think not) Fanning also helps with the horrible hot flushes you’ll experience, and cool you down.

Slow, deep breathing.

If i’m with someone, I need them to stay quiet unless I ask them something. I can’t handle anyone talking to me, or trying to distract me, or working me up. At the time of a panic attack, I don’t need someone highlighting the fact I’m panicking by making me say the alphabet backwards. It’s nice to know someone is with you, but If I’m having a panic attack, I’m already hearing everything 10x louder and need to try and calm down. You also don’t have a lot of energy to speak, as any energy you do have, is being used everywhere else.

In terms of long term treatment, stupidly, for 6 and half years, I put off going to a doctor, because I thought that I’d be able to control them myself. When I started having panic attacks visiting my boyfriend, I knew I had to do something about it, as it was hindering my way of life, and everyday things i really wanted to do, and I got fed up, and decided to make an appointment at my doctors surgery. Unfortunately, this completely destroyed any faith I had as it was the most pointless hour of my life. She sat and explained to me what a panic attack was. Funnily enough, after 6 and a half years of experiencing them, I already had a pretty clear idea. I have also been reading a few books. I’d really recommend the one I have photographed, and even for your partner, family member or friends to read. Have a look on line for self help books, some are a load of tosh, but some are quite eye opening. I don’t take any medication for my panic attacks, mainly because my doctor said “I don’t think we should put you on anything, how about you try some from a chemist or something” I take Kalms, but whether they work or not, I don’t know. In all honesty, I’m not all too pleased with my Dr’s approach, or the NHS. They’ve not been helpful at all. This may not be the case for you, but I think in order to get further treatment I am going to have to go private for CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy – Re-training the brain) or try hypnotherapy techniques. If any of you have had any experiences you want to share, please do. Not just for me to read, but others reading the comments.

Avoiding Panic…

For many people, the only way they can avoid having a panic attack, is literally sitting at home and never leaving the house. I never want to get this bad, but I can see how it would happen very easily with a lot of people. My panic attacks are a lot worse when I am stressed, or run-down, so I find it’s really important to give myself a break. For many people that means taking time off work or going on holiday. I just make sure I get enough sleep, try to be as organised as possible and don’t rush anywhere. You may think the last one is a given, but for a while, being in “fast-pace” London made everything a lot worse. In the mornings before I’d leave to go home, Me and my boyfriend decided we would get ready slowly, walk slowly and even wait for the next tube if we weren’t there in time (I literally didn’t rush anywhere for about 4 weeks) & this made SUCH a difference.
I also tend to listen to relaxing music before I know I need to go somewhere where I may panic. A favourite of mine recently has been Dianna Vickers’ album (Her voice, I appreciate, could have an adverse affect on some people – but i find it keeps me calm because there are no fast beats or shouty bits) So find something you find relaxing.
I also think it’s important to write down how you are feeling if you feel like you are about to panic. Once when I was on the tube, I started having a panic attack, so I whacked out my phone and started frantically writing how I felt and every time something changed mentally or physically, I’d write it. This weirdly, calmed me down a lot quicker. I don’t know if this is because it distracted me, or because it made everything slightly more logical.
I still can’t really go out and drink with friends but I’ve not been as bad recently. I do find however, that driving (so i know I can leave when I want), or having someone who is prepared to pick me up, makes things a lot less tense. Knowing I can get home if I do panic, puts me at ease. If you were to tell me we were all getting a taxi at 3am an hour from home, I’d freak out.
I don’t like to have set times for things, as I feel a bit trapped. Sounds weird, but i’m sure plenty of you know exactly what I mean. I won’t even book an advanced train ticket any more (even though they are slightly cheaper), I get a ticket which gives me a bit of lee-way so I don’t have to rush anywhere or be stuck to one time.
I think everyone will have their own individual ways of avoiding and banishing panic attacks, it’s really whatever works best for you, but I think “Taking it easy” really is the best advice I can give. You don’t want to overwork your heart, as this may bring on panic.

How can I help someone who suffers Panic Attacks?

I’m going to do a little section here, on how to help someone who is having a panic attack, or someone who suffers them quite a lot. I looked online for something similar to this to show my boyfriend, and I didn’t have much luck. So I’m going to write this myself, in the hope some of you will show this to your partners/friends/family and then they can feel a little more at ease about how to help you. Although it sucks having a panic attack, I can’t imagine standing next to someone feeling helpless feels very nice either.

1. Remain calm. There is nothing worse than being with someone who is freaking out whilst they are, they will never calm down if you are flapping about like a headless chicken.
2. Do not be forceful. Be patient, and accepting. Do not settle for them panicking and being affected alone.
3. Let them do things at their own pace.
4. Don’t make assumptions about what the panicker needs, ask them.
5. Find something positive in every experience. If the affected person is only able to go partway to a particular goal, such as the cinema or out for a coffee, consider that an achievement rather than a failure.
6. Remember that they don’t choose to be this way. Do not show any dissapointment or annoyance when panic strikes or if they don’t feel they can’t do something.
7. In a panic attack, DON’T say:
“Relax. Calm down. Don’t be anxious. Let’s see if you can do this (i.e., setting up a test for the affected person). You can fight this. What should we do next? Don’t be ridiculous. You have to stay. Don’t be a coward. Pull yourself together, Stop being silly, what’s wrong with you”
Instead, DO SAY:
“You can do it no matter how you feel. I am proud of you. Tell me what you need now. Breathe slow and low. Stay in the present. It’s not the place that’s bothering you, it’s the thought. I know that what you are feeling is painful, but it’s not dangerous. You are courageous. Remember that panic attacks only last a maximum of 20 minutes”

8. Do not try to distract them with stupid questions. As I said before, we don’t want to say the alphabet backwards or talk about our day, it just highlights the fact that we are having a panic attack, thus creating more panic.
9. Be supportive & reassuring. After a panic attack, the person can feel down, depressed, angry, insecure and with very low self esteem. It’s your job to help them to feel better about themselves and to let them know you are there.

I really hope I have managed to cover everything, and I hope this has helped some of you. If you’re reading this, and you really feel down and depressed about your panic attacks and the way it has affected your life, please remember…

You are not alone, panic attacks are VERY common, and although terrifying, will not kill you. Don’t let your attacks ruin your confidence or dent your self esteem, you are an amazing person, and you CAN stop them, with the right treatment and techniques. Do not force yourself to go somewhere you don’t feel comfortable, you and your health are far more important than keeping someone else happy. If someone close to you fails to understand, it can leave you feeling terribly alone and insecure, FORCE them to read this blog post and tell them I’ll kick their bottom if they don’t LISTEN and show as much support as possible.

That’s all from me. Please share experience’s and leave comments below, it won’t just help me, but will also help others just like you reading this blogpost.

  • millie moo 💓

    thanks zoe this really helped 💓

  • Emma

    This helped so much Zoey I go through the same thing and it’s really hard for me because everyday I go to middle school trying to get to my classes with out having a panic attack in front of everyone especially the 7 and 8th graders I’ve only been in school for 6 days and already had 4 panic attacks and I really don’t want to have them for the rest of the year what should I do when I get them at school?

    • Sabine

      Aww, i hope you find a way!! Sending you a lot of love!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3

      • Emma

        Aww thank you so much😘

        • I have panic attacks every english lesson and i have english everyday i hate it and i dont want to go to school because of it but i have to and i cant tell anyone in my class because they all hate me idk what to do about it

  • Becca

    I just had a panic attack that lasted fifteen minutes and I got so scared. I had no one and it’s 3:53am. I remembered reading this when you first posted, so I came back and read it again after watching some of Joe’s videos. I still dont feel 100% and i have school tomorrow and I’m scared it’s going to happen again. I just want to say thankyou for this because it’s helped me a lot.

    • Sabine

      <3 <3 <3

  • Sabine

    Wow Zoe! This really opened my eyes. A panic-attack is so different then i thought… I HAVE SO MUCH RESPECT FOR YOU! It’s so brave of you that you still try going out or going on the tube. Pls never give up
    A massive thanks for writing this, although i don’t know anybody with panic attacks, but like i said it really opened my eyes…. Now i see how brave you are, how brave others with this are. I hooe i can ever help anyone during a panic attack with your tips.
    It made my sad reading it, so everybody with panic attacksattacks: pls dont give up, you are wonderful💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜😭😍😍😍😍😍

    • Rhiannon Hughes

      beautiful advice, thank you so much for being understanding. Not many people understand because they haven’t experienced it themselves. I think you are very inspirational for being so understanding and supporting xoxo

  • TheLittleBlogger

    Hi Zoe
    Just too say I think your amazing and you are a massive inspiration to me. I had my first panic attack a few months ago and watching your videos and reading your blog often helps me calm down and relax. So just thanks for always being there and actually posting this as it is quite personal
    Love you soooo much

  • Izzy

    Wow ZOE!!!!

    You and all the others who have/had panick attacks are so brave. You cleared so much up and just opened my eyes to so much more about people.You’re amazing. You inspire me and so many people.
    Love YOU!!! Keep doing what you do-it helps all of us!


  • Loida Arinal Fregil

    Hi zoe! I’m suffering panic attacks Nd anxiety 2 weeks now. Thank you for making this blog and for making me realize that panic attacks could last for 20 mins. Because panic threatends me so much that I just wanna stay at home. I didn’t expect you also suffer this one. But im so proud of you bcos u overcome this! Hopefully i can also. God bless you more! Hoping i could get a reply from you. 💋

  • Hannah Rolleman

    Thank god I’m not the only one. I went for a long time thinking I was crazy or there was something wrong with me. So I forced myself to keep it to my self. Now I know I’m not insane. It feels good to finally be happy with myself.

  • Maddy

    Thank you for having the courage to write this. I kept quiet and ignored my anxiety for about four years and figured it would get better by itself and sort itself out. Totally agree about the NHS. I went through private healthcare and have had a really good experience – I got assigned to a psychotherapist for CBT within two days and have been going ever since. Hope you manage to get some professional help because panic attacks are so overwhelming and debilitating that it can be too much to do all by yourself. That’s what I found anyway! xxxxxx

  • Alysha

    Only found this now. I am so glad I did. I’ve suffered with Anxiety and Panic Attacks for about 7 month now. I went to the doctors and honestly, they helped a little by taking my blood to see if anything was wrong but after that when it came out clear they didn’t help one bit. I read so much about Panic Attacks and Anxiety, yet I never fully understand it even though I go through it my self. I have counseling in school, which I don’t think is working that much. I’m getting so much out of it, but lately in the past 4 weeks (the weeks I’ve had counseling) I’ve had a total of 3/4 panic attacks. Worse part is they happened in the places I never wanted it to happen. At my clubs at my churches. They place where I thought I felt safe and perfectly happy, turns out to be the same as every where else now.
    I know I’m not the only one who suffers but when I have an Anxiety attack its the first thing that comes into my head because basically all the time there’s no one who’s been through the same as me anywhere around me so I feel isolated. Its the worse. I hate even talking or mentioning it because I need soo much confidence to say it.
    Thanks so much for writing this blog post. I hope it has helped many, many, many more people/

  • Alex-lea

    Thank you for writing this, although I have suffered for years with anxiety I didn’t actually know that I was having panic attacks until I read this. Recently it’s been on trains which is hard because I’m on placement for university far away but I’m hoping to transfer home. I realised that I had the panic attacks because I knew there was nowhere for me to go, I couldn’t get off the train because I’d be in the middle of nowhere and then what. I was on my own and felt embarrassed because there were other people on the train. Thankfully my family understand that it’s not something I want, and my boyfriends extremely supportive I’ve had a week off but I’m hoping to go back to uni and explain and get transferred and get help hopefully CBT and try yoga.. Thank you so much, lots of love 😘❤️

  • Abby

    I’ve been feeling very anxious recently. It’s not quite to the extent of panic attacks, but feeling very anxious and tense all of a sudden, including some panic attack symptoms. I’ve been worrying a lot more recently as I am afraid this might lead to a panic attack. I feel this blog post has helped me a lot about understanding more about anxiety as a whole. Thank you Zoe Ly xxxxxxxxxxxx

  • Laura

    I just wanted to thank you so much Zoe. I am 15 and have had serious panic attacks since I was 10. I totally relate to everything you`ve said, and I am so glad I found such a positive role model. I get panic attacks whenever I feel like I am not in control, like I have no choice to stop what I`m doing and leave. This includes planes, boats, tests in school, going out with my friends, other people`s cars, and even vacations. It`s really hard because my family often tells me that it`s all in my head, and if I go and force myself to try new things I will be cured. But this approach has resulted in some really negative experiences that only added to my anxiety. After reading your post, I now have the courage to speak up about what I can and can`t do. I know that if I do things in my own time, at my own pace, I can work through this. Thank you so so so much!

    • Puppy’s for life

      My parents do the same thing! You should tell them how that is making you feel! I also have the same problem with public transportation! I’m so grad I’m not the only one.

  • Callie Lewis

    i had a panic attack for the first time last month and I’ve been having them quite a lot recently and i read this after a recommendation from a friend it has helped so much xx they have stopped me from doing a lot of things and now I’ll try to make a change because if you have done it then maybe I can too

  • Zoe Imogen

    I have panic attacks every english lesson and i have english everyday i hate it and i dont want to go to school because of it but i have to and i cant tell anyone in my class because they all hate me idk what to do about it

    • Meelah Rose

      If you haven’t let the school know then you should do that. And you shouldn’t worry about your peers, they don’t matter any more than your health!

  • Faheena

    I asked my two sisters to read this because my sisters wedding day she and the other sister both had a panic attack cant believe that happened cause i faint alot and everyone thought something would happen to me lol bu you have such great advice
    Thank you so much

  • Amy Fitzpatrick

    Wow! I think one of the main issues with having anxiety is feeling like everyone is looking at you yet you are so alone. Everyone deals with things differently and people deal with anxiety differently. Me? i have had anxiety for as long as i can remember, and when i say that i mean even Family members telling me they can remember me at the age of 3 being a little wreck. Some people have panic attacks where they stop breathing and going in to PANIC MODE. Me obviously someone has to be different….. i’m sick…. yes sick … not like a tactical chunder or bulimia full on OMG IM PANICKING OMG OMG … VOM.

    Now can you imagine growing up as a teenager … going through your nervous stages… meeting boys… job interviews and all that … when the only place you feel “safe” is …. your safe place. I can remember being 7 in a restaurant and Panicking because the toilets were far away and if i felt sick i would have to run … i got myself that worked up i was sick all over the place! I have literally been sick in the most random of places and have so many stories, helpful tips and ways that have helped me and others, i could write a book about it if anyone would actually buy it! – Hey Zoe Fancy giving me a break and writing a book together?

    The thing that gets me through a bad day is remembering ….. when you think you have it bad someone else has got it 10 times worse. I developed my own tactics/help i read books from “the secret” to listening to women in audio books telling me to be as calm as the trees in the wind and all that B.S. At the end of the day the sooner you come to accept your self for who you are, find something you are good at and feel confident doing you will shine …. and when you shine you feel better…. and when you feel better your Panic buttons don’t get pressed because your body is buzzing with excitement. The hard thing is, getting to this stage. I am now 22, i have suffered from anxiety for years and years- i would say from going back when i was in year 2 so whats that 5? – and i still do, i have been sick in total 3 times today, i have problems eating certain foods …. but do you know what…. I AM HAPPY – well not 100% of the time but who ever tells you they are always happy are on drugs.

    If i have any advise for any of you who are reading this…. essay that was suppose to just say “thanks Zoe!”…. Just breathe, take a step back, you’re not alone, count backwards from 10 (don’t count forwards because thats to quick), think of a colour (trust me it works), put your hands over your eyes, count again. THEN DO THE BIGGEST GRIN EVER AND THE NEXT PERSON YOU SEE TELL THEM TO HAVE A NICE DAY.

    Sorry about the essay- i could go on and on and on. Love you all. Be good, If you can’t be good be careful, if you can’t be careful be spontaneous and if you can’t be spontaneous then don’t do it.

    • sophie

      This helped me so much and I tried your counting thing it really worked your probably wondering why a 11 year old girl is up on a school night I had a panick attack before I went to be and know I can’t sleep

    • Puppy’s for life

      Look at the comment above.

    • duke7234

      I know and it’s terrible and I hate it when it happens at school or anywhere :(

    • Rhiannon Hughes

      Stay strong, that advice was really beautiful. If you want to talk, send me an email at [email protected]
      Whatever it is, I would be happy to help xoxo

    • Emma Rosser

      I just wanted to say that was the best advice I’ve ever heard on panic attacks and anxiety and I’m 37 years old. I have suffered with anxiety since I was 13 and over the last year it has got really bad, so thank you for sharing. It’s awful feeling like your not normal all the time and I get hot flushes so bad it makes me really uncomfortable around people. I get even more anxious when this happens and just want to run away from the situation cause I literally turn bright red. I also shake, get light headed, feel sick, can’t breathe and I feel so terrified it feels like my heart is going to explode out of my chest. It would be so great if more people were informed about anxiety and how debilitating it can be on your everyday life. So keep up the great writing and take care xx

    • jason marshall

      I get panic attacks in crowded places,trains,buses and shopping centres! I also had some panic attacks at my own house and called the ambulance once. While I was at the A&E,waiting for hours, I regreted the whole thing. I wanted to go back to my place. A hospital x-ray worker told me this could’ve been a small strock and passed it’s way. I had to see a private neurologist who confirmed that this was a panic attack caused by hyperventilation. I wanted to have a c-t scan but he said to me ”don’t waste your money” and that he knows if it’s a stroke or not. This was in 2012 when I was diagnosed with anxiety/panic attack.

  • Christa Snellenberg

    Thank you so much for writing this Zoë, I’ve been suffering from panic attacks for about a year now and I still feel like I’m not normal. Especially at school they have been getting really bad the past time and most of my teachers don’t understand if I ask them if I can go out for some fresh air. Your story has helped me so much and I now know that I’m not the only one. Thank you for being such a strong person and being able to share your story with us. Thank you so so so much! <3

  • MyLifeAsYas

    Thank you so much Zoe ! I thought i was was not normal. This has helped so much, thank you ! Love you xx

  • Salina

    I suffer from panic attacks, and even though I have watched your video three times this really helped, the thing that I really need help with is that I have no clue how to tell my friends about this. I really want to tell them but I don’t have the courage to do it because I know I will start to cry when I tell them or they won’t understand.

    • Meelah Rose

      You should wait until you are ready, and feel safe. Make sure you know your friends are going to be open-minded about it. Good luck!

    • Nadine

      You don’t need to tell them straight away. In fact, the only friends who know about my anxiety are my close friends that were there when I had my first panic attack. I took me 5 months to tell anyone one else, not even my parents knew. The point is, don’t rush yourself. Tell them when your sure your ready to share this part of you life with them. Good Luck!!! Xxx Nadine

  • Leah Borthwick

    Thank you so much for writing this Zoe, I have had anxiety ever since I was 10 years old and it’s been so difficult, evrytime I walk into drama class to preform I start shaking and it leads up to having a panic attack, I feel weak and worthless but your blog post and video have made me think more about saying yes to things and how much easier it would be just to open up and be more adventurous.

    Thank you, and never stop doing what your doing, you’re am inspiration💗

  • Nathxx Blogr

    Hey Zoe, recently I’ve experienced something that could be panic attacks and anxiety quite often.. How do I know if that’s the case for sure? This post really helped me <3 Thanks

  • sophie

    Hi Zoe I thought if you could tell everyone your story why can’t I so here it is when I was much younger I fainted in church in front of my entire school everyone was starring at me and I was just shaking wondering what had. Happened I have fainted 2 times since then and because u fainted in front of a big crowd my Anxiety has mainly been about performing or speaking in front of crowds I can’t even walk into class late because I’m scared everyone’s going to stare at me , but your probably wondering when my panick attacks first started , the first time it happen fed was 2years ago and I wasn’t even aware of what a panick Atrack was Anyway my class had to do a assembly and just before it started I couldn’t breathe and I told my teacher I felt like I was going to faint and she let me go and sit in the class room I just cried my eyes out and tried to catch my breathe I didn’t have anothe panick Atrack for 2 year ,okay I know your probably board know but I really need to talk about this to help myself and hopefully others – it started again when I went a knew school and we had to do a presentation on are own in front of the whole class reading and i hate reading out loud Iam deslixes adm when I went up my heart started pounding so hard I couldn’t hear myself speak and I felt like I was shaking but when I looked at my legs they weren’t moving at all / so basically 2days later I had a mini but really scary panic attack so happy to be able to talk about it Thxs everyone hope someone can relate to my story

  • I’m having a really, really bad panic attack right now and when I do, I always read this. It makes me realize I’m not gonna die and I don’t need to worry.

    • Fitstargal

      I hope you’re ok now x

      • Thanks, I am! I’m having help for it as well so it’s going to get better I hope :)

  • Amy

    My god ur not the only one !!
    I get over stressed about everything in life and having read your first book , I know exactly how you feel and I felt happier that I wasn’t the only 1 !!

  • James

    Thank you for writing this, never have I read something about this where I am able to relate so much. I’ve been having panic attacks for just under five years now, it all started for me in a pretty similar situation to you although for me I was the one being uncontrollably sick from alcohol. I was 15 and this was my first NYE party, I was having a great time and ultimately not knowing my limits I drank way too much and was sick multiple times. Never have I felt so bad! Ever since that day the thought of going out and drinking makes me incredibly nervous until I get to the point of throwing up myself. As disgusting as it sounds I’m almost now glad when I’m sick, it feels as if the panicked feelings are leaving my body the moment I throw up. It’s a sort of cycle that goes – Potential situation that I may feel uncomfortable with has arise -> me hoping that I won’t feel panicked -> can’t stop thinking of the situation, I almost big it up to something huge in my own mind -> get to the situation must know where nearest toilets and exits are so I can get out if needed. Prepare excuse to leave -> panic attack starts GET OUT GET OUT!! Alarm bells ringing in my head against the situation –> throw up. All those negative thoughts leave my body -> head back out like nothing has happened and continue in that situation with no feeling that another attack will come.

    Probably important to say now that I have only ever told one person about this, my ex girlfriend. So when people ask me to come out with them and I refuse and make up some terrible excuse about me ‘not feeling it’ or ‘cant be bothered tonight but another night maybe!’. I know they don’t believe me but no one understands or will understand when I say unless they’ve experienced it as well. I tried to explain to my ex girlfriend why I couldn’t or didn’t want to do certain things, she didn’t understand and I could always feel the annoyance from her to me. This was the main reason I couldn’t continue seeing her, I wanted more than anything to continue seeing her I just felt I could no longer give her what she deserved. So as years went on the panic attacks seem to affect more and more of my life. Suddenly the thought of doing anything was too much. I was restricted to the house on my own, in a matter of months I remember feeling panicked about these situations:

    Eating out at a restaurant
    Eating with family
    My sisters graduation
    Going out for staff birthdays/Christmas meal
    Any pre-organised trip to the pub with the boys – I’m sitting here 1st November 2015 already thinking ‘I hope I’m gonna feel okay for NYE and my birthday on the 24th Nov.’
    Going out for the day with friends/family
    Meeting up with friends
    Meeting women and potentially having a relationship. Sex
    and as stupid as it sounds just getting in the car with my ex was enough to set me off. The feeling of being trapped and her just talking to me. Me there saying the bare minimum just wanting her to be quiet so I could concentrate and avoid what I knew was inevitable, I’m still yet to win that battle

    I’ve felt so alone battling this, reading this is one of the first times that I’ve realised I’m not the only one going through this. People do feel exactly like me. So thank you for writing this. I’ll never forget this line from Sherlock no less which said ‘You can’t kill an idea, can you? Not once it’s made a home. {taps forehead} There.’

    Recently my attacks have been less frequent which is great, however my mind seems to be now wired to expect that to change like flicking a switch on when certain situations arise again.

    It’s strange because behind closed doors I feel all of this, I never tell anyone this. Behind a computer screen its so much easier to say the truth. I think if people knew I was going through this they’d be shocked. I’ve got a great mechanism of showing to the outside world how confident I am. Never stop talking, as I’m sure I have shown in all this, I do sometimes think of saying something but never quite have the guts too.

    If you’ve stuck with me reading all this then I thank you. Goodinight


  • Fitstargal

    Dear Zoe,
    I found this incredibly relatable and inspiring. I have anxiety, panic attacks and OCD… your blog and your Q & A’s always really help me and make me know that I’m not alone. I really respect you, and I love you so much and I hope that one day I might possibly be able to meet you and thank you (for how much you’ve helped me and many others) in person.
    Thank you Zoe.
    Lots of love, Darcie x

  • Nikola

    Thank you so much this post has helped me so much and I feel as though I have to live my life to the fullest everyday but be careful with what I do. Thanks again.
    xoxo Nikky

  • Rutu Luhar

    Thanks so much. You really helped me feel better about things. You are a very strong person. I am sure this helped lots of people…

  • Avery Heaver

    I once had a panic attack during an exam and, being in a hall with 200 students, I tried to keep it to myself, but then the teacher called me out on it and everyone turned to stare at me… when we were dismissed I ran out and proceeded to panic for an extra half an hour (two panic attacks separated by twenty seconds of calm) and the only way I calmed down was when a girl I barely knew wrapped me into a really firm, but comforting hug and repeatedly told me that I was okay until I calmed down. Normally I hate being touched but that hug really did help me.

    Another time I had a panic attack at a festival and passed out from hyperventilating so hard – I got pulled over the barrier and when I came around I began to panic again, but a woman stared at me in the eyes and told me to copy her breathing, and it calmed me down in seconds.

    The worst panic attack I’ve ever had, however,was when I was home alone watching (coincidentally) a Zoella video, when I suddenly began to panic. I stood up to go and get the phone so I could call for help, but was so dizzy I couldn’t stay upright. I crawled to the bathroom as nausea washed over me, and got there just in time to be sick. I remember shaking so violently that my head was constantly banging on the toilet seat (classy, huh?) and my heart pounding in my ears at what felt like 1000 beats per minutes, and crying uncontrollably. After about twenty minutes of this I calmed down considerably, although I stayed curled up on my bathroom floor for another two hours, drifting in and out of sleep, until my mum came home.

    Thankfully it is very rare that I have panic attacks these days, although I still suffer from severe anxiety.

  • Hearts for evaaaa

    Hey Zoe I have panic attacks which I now know because of this. It started today in lesson and I had to wait until break to get some fresh air.The only trouble is that all my family think I’m a ‘Zoella wanna-be’ so the only people who believe me are my friends.Pleasee help because I don’t now how to make them believe me!!!

    • Hearts for evaaaa

      It would really help if someone had a tip for me about how to deal with them aswel

    • zoe

      you could always tell a teacher or someone close that could talk to your family. Then they could talk to your family. or go to a doctor.

  • Lois Brakes

    Thanks zoe this really helped!
    My main symptom is depersonalisation and it’s really hard for me to manage! It would be great to finally meet you one day.
    I’ve had soo many counsellors an nothing has changed The other day I thought of your tips when I finally tried to go out the house because I haven’t in ages and they helped! Thanks soo much zoe!

    • Tori

      Lois have you tried mindfulness? It’s really good for depersonalization. I have that too and it’s a living hell. Mindfulness helps, and especially keeping myself busy with projects and such.

  • Puppy’s for life

    So true! I remember, two months ago, I had to get stitches and the whole time I was looking at the boy across from me, crying his eyes out. Apparently, he had just found that he had a brain tumor. (form of cancer)
    The whole time I was getting stitches, I was looking at the boy, he looked about 10. I just looked at him, and thought to myself, many people have it worse than I do. I then cried for the boy, instead of myself. It’s hard not to believe that many have it worse when you watch it first hand. I felt so bad for him, that I forgot I even had an issue.

  • Jillian O’Neel

    I keep telling myself that it cannot hurt me, I try to make it go away, I can’t. It’s been happening since I was 10, I am 12 now. The last one I had was 2 days ago. I think they are getting worse. One time I actually did black out. One time I almost actually stopped breathing. It’s so horrifying. If you or anyone have ANY tips I would be more than thankful. I’m trying to keep my head high through everything. I’m in one of the hardest most stressful years of school right now and want to get it under control. It happens almost once every month, sometimes 2-3 times. It feels so good to get this off my chest. Except not literally yet. Please help!

    • Puppy’s for life

      I’ve had them since I was only nine, I’m 13 now. I know how you feel.

      • Jillian O’Neel

        Thank you puppy’s for life

        • Puppy’s for life

          No problem :)

    • Sarah

      One of the best things I think you could do is learn breathing techniques. You need to practice everyday for a while and do this even if you feel anxious. There’s different places you can learn breathing techniques online you can try meditation or just simply breathing in mouth and out your nose counting to about 5-7 seconds. Make sure you’re eating well and sleeping well too because this can also affect you :) hope this helps x

      • Jillian O’Neel

        Thanks Sarah, I’ll try it. :)

    • Steve Guarino

      Hi Jillian, I suffered from panic attacks also from a young age and know that they can be very upsetting. In fact, I recently wrote a book to help people overcome their panic naturally. the name of the book is Make Peace With Panic Naturally.

      The most important thing to do and this is also the most difficult is to do your best to remain calm (realize that it will not harm you)

      when panic begins to set in. If you need to, do your best to clear your mind by focusing on taking deep breathes into your belly, not just your lungs. Do this slowly and thoughtfully. It helps to count the amount of time that you take to inhale and then also count the amount of time it takes to exhale. Try to do this as slowly as possible.

  • Mimi

    It was only today that I was at home at I started crying and not being able to breath. Do u think this a panic attack or just stress??

    • Tori

      It sounds like it could be stress and maybe some depression. But it depends on what’s going on in your life, to figure out why you’re feeling this way. Consider your social life, anything biological, and anything psychological. You can try to map your moods and when you feel most anxious, then assess what you were doing in those moments to see what’s triggering you.

      • Mimi

        Thank you Tori I will try:-)

  • Mimi

    I also can’t sleep at night and I haven’t been genuinely happy for around 2 years now please what do I do!?!?

    • Tori

      If it was a panic attack you would know. People don’t ask “is this a panic attack?”

  • Jem McKenna

    how do you deal with a panic attack when you are driving? I’m a Learner driver and I had one whilst driving and it was really dangerous….

  • Lauren Jones

    Hello Zoe.

    The NHS are a complete disgrace to me too, they never seem to even know what i am talking about and/or don’t believe me when i say i feel this and that etc. My GP certainly never gave me any sympathy and i found the whole situation really annoying. After that appointment with the GP, i ran out, cried, and had a panic attack .
    I have had Anxiety/Depression since 2012 and yet nothing has been done apart from some Beta-Blockers(which made it even worse) and a 6 month waiting list for counseling which even then i didn’t feel like they truly understood, or could relate. I have an appointment on Monday to once again tell my GP that my Anxiety and panic attacks are worsening, and ask for at least something that will help me have a better quality of life, wish me luck:(

    If all else fails i think i shall go private, to a specialist doctor. Although, after 2 years of trying to ask my dad for a private consultation never seemed to work.

  • Tori

    I got my first attack at 15 and I’m 34 now. This has consumed my life, because I didn’t get treatment in time and became agoraphobic then was in/out of behavioral hospitals being diagnosed with everything you can think of and pumped full of medications. Right now I’m surviving but definitely nowhere near thriving. Life just feels like hell all the time. I do try to get enough sleep, meditate, eat nutritious foods, and go outside. If I’m able to do these things it’s much more manageable. I do wonder if someone drugged me the first night I got the attack (at 16). I’m wondering if something like that may have happened to you too, since you were at a party. I was in a similar situation. The attack started in the middle of the night after everyone went to sleep — and I remained in a dreamlike state for years.

  • mysterycomment

    Hi Zoe, just want to thank you for the helpful tips.
    I know you probably aren’t going to get to read this, but just in case I’m going to share anyway. I’m 12 years old,(yes, 12) and i have had panic attacks since i was 6, not mini ones, full on panic attacks,they would come about here and there but i didn’t have many. This year everything has been absolutely terrible! My panic attacks have slowly begun to take over my life. Now, i don’t only get them once or twice, i pretty much get them every second day. The more i have, the worse they get. At first my heart just started to beat fast and i started to feel nauseous, but now when i have them, i feel dizzy, nauseous, i start to shiver to the point when i can’t even walk, i feel as if i can’t breath and as if the world is closing in on me. i have been to many psychologists and psychiatrists, its slowly getting better. people say that I’m too young to have panc attacks, but as you have said i don’t want them! the just happen! it’s probably going to sound weird, but you are my absolute role-model. when i grow up i want to be just like you! you have really inspired me and for some odd reason after my panic attacks, when i feel all depressed and stuff i go onto your blog, Zoella, and i immediately start to feel better. And this comment is probably very late but it took a lot of courage.
    thank you Zoe for giving me some one to look up to!
    P.S don’t know what happened to the font as i was typing.

  • JJ. Arbon

    i ALWAYS have a panic attack when i go on a plane. i wind myself up so much that i dont look forward to going on holiday, and i would much rather stay at home in my comfort zone. Also, a few nights before i leave to go on holiday, i have panic attacks because i seriously dont want to go.

    im fine in the airport because i can go shopping in duty free and treat myself to a benefit mascara or something but as soon as i enter the place where im about to board the plane, i start winding myself up. ill sit down on the plane and be fine for about 30 minutes and after that im a wreck. I also have a phobia of vomit and travelling makes me feel sick so when i go on a plane i instantly feel sick which then causes me to panic. I have tried so many ways to try and calm myself down, but the only one that orks in going home and getting into my bed (which is of course impossible in this situtation. Can anyone relate? x any help would be HUGELY appreciated

    • Elvia Chávez

      i don’t really know if this will work so if you don’t want to try it it si totally okay but while i was reading girl online (the first book) zoe write that “penny” was having a panic attack when they were flying to NY and she was with her best friend “eliot” and he told her that she should create herself a kind of an “alter ego” so she decided to go with OCEAN STRONG and she wrote that she had picked that because the ocean is calmed and she was strong or something like that so if you have a brother or a siter that knows about how you feel i guess if you try this you could tel her/him to keep reminding you abou it.
      i am extreamly sorry if this doen’t help but i really couldn’t tell you anything better because i do know how you feel but in different situations so i hope i could help even if it is just a little tiny bit until you can figure out a better way. XOXO

    • Steve Guarino

      Hi JJ, I have experienced the same circumstance. Getting on a plane is difficult for most people, however, I believe for those of us that suffer from panic, it is even more difficult because it brings on all of our panic symptoms. Have you tried to listen to music that you enjoy or traveling with someone that knows you and understands your fear. I found peace by changing my diet, doing meditation, yoga and eventually making peace with the symptoms. In fact, I wrote a book about how I healed myself naturally from panic.

    • Rhiannon Hughes

      I can totally relate to what you’re going through. Take deep deep breaths and count to 10 in your head. Start thinking about what you’re going to do on holiday. Put headphones in and close your eyes and think about your holiday. Have you read Girl Online? Penny is really anxious on planes too, but she creates an ulter-ego called Ocean Strong who isn’t afraid.
      Please email me if you are struggling with anything at al at [email protected]
      I have started a blog and will be writing things about learning to love your life even with anxiety. I have had severe anxiety and panic attacks for several years, so I am proof that it can be done. If you want to visit my blog, it is and if you are struggling with anything at all please email me at [email protected]. My twitter is @roohughes111

      Stay strong, it will get better xoxo

    • SuggLife

      JJ. Arbon I feel the EXACT same way. I have a phobia of sick and when I fell sick I panic. I don’t know why but if I even feel a little bit sick I will feel so sick. It sucks. I know but we will get through this together!

    • Kyla

      OMG, thank you so much, this actually really helped me as a 12 year old girl who can’t tell her parents about my anxiety I needed something I could use and this is brilliant!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you sooooooo much! xxx

      • Sasha Grimes

        Please tell your parents! I thought the same about mine but they really do try to help x you are their child! X

        • Kyla

          Thank you so much! I think I will! ❤️ Xx

          • Sasha Grimes

            Good! Your welcome! X

      • Grace Dawe

        I think telling your parents can help. I didn’t tell mine straight away and struggled for years, telling someone can and does help x

  • Elvia Chávez

    so i know this coment won’t be about panic attaks but even though this blogpost really did kinda like opened my eyes. so i dont know if i am really dealing with it but i am too afraid of figuring out because i am afraid of everybody seeing me as a weak girl because everybody is always like how do you have all your life sorted out even though you are 14 and i really just don’t know what to do.
    i always feel so depressed when i get home and i just want to cry myself to sleep everyday because, do you ever get thath feeling that everybody hates you? well i get that feeling every day and i am always like why me?
    imagine, you are with your friends in a classroom or in a coffe shop wherever you want and i am seating right in front of you and someone tells a jike i instantly tink you are laughing at me. i am constantly feeling in a cage and i am always worried abaout things that mabye won’t even happen but i still worry.

    i am araid of telling my parents about what i feel because i am afraid that if i tell them they will think i am seeking for more attention and i really struggle to make new friends and i always loose my best friends (whan i think they are real friends they end up beeing super bad persons) and a friend of mine keep telling me come on i will introduce you a really good friend of mine he is handsome and a really good person but i am so afraid that he will just be like why did you brought this girl and he is just gonna say bad things about me and i saw a video about something called social anxiety thet is practicly socialphobia but i really don’t know if it is a real thing that i have or if it is just in my mind.
    i don’t know if it is a panic attack but i always that i am with a small group of people i am always feeling my face burning and i start turning red and my heart starts beating so fast but i don’t know if it is a panic attack because i can still breath perfectly it is just my heart and my face like when you are talking to a boy or a girl you like you start getting nervous and that is what i feel like every day in school.
    if someone sees this and know how i feel o someone can relate please tell me how to deal with it or what should i do, how do i tell my parents? what should i tell my friend about his friend? please i really don’t know how to do this.
    and Zoe thank you so so so so much for this it has helped me so much even though it is not what i am feeling or at least i don’t think so i love you so much and angain thank you for everything and i will never forget what you said in your vlog 2 or 3 days ago “anxiety is not you is just a little fraction of who you are”.

  • megan

    I’m not sure if I suffered a panic attack yesterday, so if someone could help that would be much appreciated! Basically it was the last day of school before we all broke up for the Christmas holidays and so each year (when this day happens) we have to sit in the gym (everyone in the whole school, including the teachers) and watch some of the pupils and the teachers sing along to carols and stuff like that, it usually lasts for just over an hour. When this day happens, some church (priest?) guy (sorry I’m not sure) comes in and talks about the meaning of Christmas and also about Jesus and stuff like that. So I walk into the gym (everyone is sitting in rows on the floor) with my friends and we sit down. For some reason I felt like this year was way more crowded than it ever has been before (when I’ve been there) and I was just sitting there and then some more people end up having to sit in front of us. This girl in my year sat in front of me, and I actually do really like her and she’s really nice, but she couldn’t move forward due to the fact that there was barely any space for her to, so she ended up being sat right up in front of me, leaving me no choice but to keep my knees up against my chest. This was making me feel extremely uncomfortable, the priest was going on talking and everyone there was laughing and talking back, then there was me keeping my head down because I was just spacing out, I felt light-headed and like I wasn’t actually there?? My friend who was sitting next to me thankfully noticed and kindly enough moved over a little, but it wasn’t helping and I kept on telling her, how I just had to get out and how I couldn’t sit there. Eventually my heart started beating really fast, and I felt a few tears creeling up on me a few times but I didn’t cry. As soon as we left I just broke down, I started crying and because of this it was making me breathe even more quicker which was causing me to overt-think even more, I was scared because it had never happened before and I didn’t know what to do, my friends all crowded around me and hugged me and comforted me, but I still didn’t feel right, they kept on telling me I was okay and it’ll be fine, but I just couldn’t stop. As we were standing outside, one of the kindest English teachers I have in my school walked past and asked if I was okay. I then started explaining how I couldn’t breathe and I felt trapped, she explained how sometimes it happens to her too, she asked if I wanted to come up to have a cup of tea or something but I turned the offer down, I just wanted to leave, eventually I calmed down and she explained how because I told her that what happened has never happened before, she suggested seeing a doctor with my parents,(she also asked if I wanted to go home, I said no though because I knew my parents were still at work), I still haven’t told my mum or dad because I feel like they wouldn’t take it as serious as it actually was?? Plus I’m the type of person that doesn’t really open up that much. Anyways, I would really like to know if I actually did suffer a panic attack??? and also should I tell my parents??

    • Deryn Rivers

      I think you are and you should definately tell your parents if it continues. Merry Christmas megan!! I sometimes suffer with this. You either have anxiety or you were feeling tired or hungry??

      • megan

        Thank you so much for this! And I think I will tell my parents, merry Christmas to you too! x

        • Deryn Rivers

          It will be hard telling your parents. Let me know how you get on. Merry Christmas again!!!

          • megan

            I know :-( I think it’ll be the right thing though! And I defiantly will :-) happy new year!

          • Deryn Rivers

            if you can, it would be best to tell your parents today as if you do it you won’t overthink it!! if you have any problems my email is [email protected] just email me!!! 3 days to go!!!!!!

        • Deryn Rivers

          Isn’t it funny how a blog post can bring people together. Though I’m not complaining I’ve met some great friends!!!!!!!!!

    • teenage girl

      that sounds like a panic attack to me, that’s how i had my first panic attack, in a school assembly. You’re not alone don’t worry x

      • megan

        Thank you x

  • Rachel

    hi , thank you for this post I know it is fairly old but it helped me so much and as a sufferer of panic attacks it has helped me to understand what happens to me a bit more, I have not identified triggers yet myself. looking at the comments this has helped millions of people so keep up the good work, PS I loved 24 days of Zoella xxxx

  • sumaiyah

    Zoe thanks for the help. i am an 11 year old girl who suffers from panic attacks. i am in year seven and i have quite as many bullies as friends. i hope they will read this and realise its not who you are its a tiny fraction of you. life may seem hard at first but you have to make it slowly through just one day followed by the next. this really helped me tame myself down during those horrible times i could just play your video or get someone to read this to me and i know i will be fine. thus has inspired me to push myself to things and places i never thought i could do or go. i am not just saying this i do suffer with this and unless you have been or seen someone in this state you wouldn’t understand it you could explain it but they will never realise the true emotion and thought put into your mind whilst in a panic attack i don’t want a life i will regret i hope no one does but if you read this please note that this has really motivated my life i know many people suffer and we all have our different ways of expressing it but the one thing we have in common is one the thing that triggers panic attacks whatever it may be. Life is not about living through anxiety its about sorting it out it is really hard for an 11 year old to share this information but i am writing this on the 25th of December when i have taken many different options and experienced many new things all thanks to this Blog thanks Zoe you have really brought out the true me i am sorry you had to live through that no one wants to but thank you for doing that and sharing that really personal information thank you this means a lotxx

  • Abby Jackson

    Thanks so much ft this blog post it’s helped heaps! If anyone is suffering from major panic attacks go see a physiologist instead of a regular doctor

  • BB

    I am generally a confident person so I wasn’t sure I was having panic attacks but after reading this I am now certain I am. Sometimes when I was at uni but mainly specifically while driving (not ideal or remotely safe!) which I hate as I don’t trust other drivers or myself. I have to drive as I’m only 21 so will need to be driving as I start work in Brighton in January and I live 40 mins away in Eastbourne. However I’ve been using the standard avoidance tactic which is making it a huge scary deal. The thought of arriving on my first day in tears, shaking and barely able to speak or write (I’m a teacher! I know a teacher with anxiety- good one) is the worst thought, making me even more anxious. I don’t know why I’m writing this as no one can help me but myself… But anxiety is so goddamn inhibiting and I would really rather be a super chill logical person

    • Steve Guarino

      Hi BB,
      You experience a common fear, the fear of driving…this was difficult for me as well, especially over a bridge!! Not fun. It is true that you can help yourself but sometimes we can use a little help. Is it possible you can find someone that you trust a great deal to go in the car with you for a drive for a few times until you become more at peace with driving? Having a “safe person” to do this with will help a lot. They can help to reassure you that everything is ok and I believe this will be helpful to you. For some people it is baby steps like sitting in the car for a little while the first few days and visualizing a successful driving experience and then working their way up to driving around the block, etc. The book I wrote on Panic under my name available on Amazon may be helpful to you as it will give you ideas on how to make changes in your life that will bring more peace and reduce your anxiety and fear. Good Luck!

      • BB

        Hi Steve,
        Thank you for the response. Yes I do have a safe person (my dad) unfortunately I cannot have him be my full time passenger 😛 It does help so much just having someone telling you your doing it right and not as terrible as you thought. I’ve started my job but gave up on the thought of driving until it’s at least light in the mornings and am getting the bus everyday. I try and drive as much as I can on weekends though and I’m getting less anxious particularly for routes I know well so I guess I need to get to know all routes ‘well’ 😛 Thank you for taking the time to message me, it’s made me think about it rather than just burying my head in the sand! Xx

        • Steve Guarino

          Hi BB,

          Your welcome :) Glad I could help.
          Good for you to continue driving! It does help to know your route to feel more comfortable.
          You’re fortunate to have a Father that helps and supports you…that’s very important to overcoming panic.

  • Sarahhowley

    Thank you so much!! Iguess im just a normal 12 year old girl that suffers with panic attacks!I started getting very minor panic attacks in summer of 2015 .When I got my first panic attack I was with my friends about to cross a road and fell off the curb luckily the car just missed me .At first my heart was racing and I could not feel my right leg and felt extremely dizzy I just lay on the road for about 5 minutes then u got the courge to stand up and walk home the dizziness ,weakness and heart racing stayed for about ten minutes after that.I have been getting panic attacks ever si centre especially in school and it is the most annoying thing because the teachers don’t understand what’s wrong with you!!I justzone out and eventually it will go !Panic attacks are something I get so I guess I just have to deal with it and move on and not let it affect me !! When I watched your video I was just after having a minor panic attack it helped me so much it makes me feel like I’m not alone


    Recently my panic attacks started getting really really bad and on most times I feel like I’m dreaming because my head got so dizzy,my legs go wobbly like I’m going to fall down,my body feels so weak and I can barely open my eyes. My body sweats more than I sweat when running a marathon. I suffered with panic attacks for almost a year now. Reading your blog and watching your videos helped me a lot. At times I would cry thinking about what is going to happen to my future when I’m just stuck in my bedroom because I’m too scared if I would have a panic attack when I’m outside. But I would remember the advice that Zoe told and trust me I feel a lot better. I started going out more and my panic attacks are decreasing and they’re not that worse anymore. I suffered with panic attacks for almost 3 years now. I started when I was 12 and I’ve never been this better before thanks to a lovely blogger named Zoella. ILYSM. Thank You.

  • teenage girl

    zoe i know you posted this forever ago but if anybody still reads this please can you help me? I panic a lot in school and people look at me weird, how can I make people understand that I can’t control what’s happening to me and if I had a choice i’d give up these stupid panic attacks. i just need somebody to understand

    • I understand, don’t worry. I don’t have many friends, just my two best friends Lauren and Sophie that I can really confide in. It will take time to explain. Just tell them, if I have a panic attack; here’s what to do. You never walk alone, if you ever have any problems talk to a family member or a best friend. Or just post on your blog and someone will help you!

    • Steve Guarino

      Hi Teenage, you are experiencing one of the common emotions of panic, we feel that everyone is looking at us and that they think something is wrong with us. I struggled with this exact feeling for many years during the time I was experiencing panic. I also felt like I was going to pass out and embarrass myself. Have you tried to talk to your best friends and explain to them? It is very helpful to have a support group around you that you can rely on. You can get better, don’t lose hope. If your interested, I recently wrote a book about panic attacks under the name steve guarino on amazon Hope you feel better!

  • I’ve only ever had one huge panic attacks but quite a lot of little ones too. The huge panic attack: I had just came out of my maths lesson, knowing that I had English. I don’t know why but in my English lessons, my mouth goes dry my throat is blocked my hands go sweaty, I just can’t think, I start pinching my leg as hard as can until I stop panicking. It’s horrible. On my way to English that day I was so scared in case I got asked a question. I was In a packed up hallway I could barely move (there are a lot of people in my high school) I could scarcely breathe. I started to cry uncontrollably and ran out of the door, my friend Sophie and florence followed me. They kept asking me what’s the matter. I could hardly speak. People were staring at me. I went to run back to the English lesson to get it over with. I was digging my nails into my palm it really hurt. My friends took me to the school pastoral guidance thingy. My friends left me there and I was on my own. I sat down with a teacher and my knees were shaking and I kept tapping my feet on the ground. I was still crying. She kept asking me all of these questions. She said I had a panic attack because I was putting too much pressure on myself to do well in English as it is the only subject that I really truly love in and the only subject that I’m good at. I kept having to go back every single English lesson and everyone stared at me when I kept my head down avoiding eye contact. I knew the answers to the questions, I just couldn’t speak or function. So I just sat there trying to take it all in and calm down. Everyone became so quick to judge me. Thinking that they had the right to call me ugly, and saying that I could never face anyone and call me a weiro. If they lived inside my mind, and saw the torment in which I have to suffer. They will see that their words have scarred me. If only they could see that. But they never do.

  • Mariana Oliveira

    It’s good to know I’m not the only one who has phobia of sick.

  • Alice

    Hey Zoe
    I just watched your video about dealing with panick attacks and anxiety. The video is just amazing! I’ve literally the same as you have/had. My panick attacks got also to a point where is was no longer able to leave the bed, to go to work or a shop, to the tram or what ever until i broke down completely and ended up in a depression. Two years later now, the attacks got much less and I feel like i can carry on with my life. Just to hear, that i’m not the only one and that I’m not abnormal makes me feel better so i wanted you to know YOU ARE NOT THE OLNY ONE AS WELL. life can hit you hard sometimes but it is ours to decide what to do with it even if we think we don’t have the power to do so.
    Something else that I found out about me and my panik is that it gets more often as I don’t challange myself enough. Challanges are scarry but they also help you to be selfconfident and happy with yourself. A wise person once told me that you have to immagine a bowl in your tummy that is filled with trust in life. this simple imagine might bring you further than you might expect.
    And by the way: exactely this kind of disorder shows that you are a very caring person but don’t feel like you have to solve everyones problems. In the first line you have to be good to yourself and handle your own life not the one of others. imagine you being in a glassbowl, you can accept the other persons problems and sorrows but you cannot solve them!

    A big fan of yours that gets inspired by you a lot <3
    Alice, 22 years old from switzerland

  • ErinLucy

    Suffering from panic attacks is awful and I hate talking to people about the as that just gets me worked up so I think your really brave to have talked so openly about your anxiety both here and on youtube and I admire you so much for it. Listening and reading about how you feel has been really helpful as I have read your really helpful tips and some past situations that I can relate to. I always feel that no one would understand me if I started talking to them about my anxiety and that they would just judge me but reading your post and other peoples comments it feels great to know I’m not alone and I’m sure loads of other people are thinking the same thing. I don’t think someone who doesn’t suffer from anxiety will ever truly understand how alone, trapped and panicked someone feels when having a panic attack but I’m sure that people reading this will have a better understanding of why people with anxiety might not want to do something or go somewhere and get so worked up about it.
    To be honest the future scares me so much and I cant even start thinking to much about without having awful panic attacks but looking at how far you have come and how you are dealing with your anxiety is a massive reassurance that in the end most things will turn out alright. Its amazing to see how much support you get from your friends and family and I just wanted to thankyou for being such an inspiration to me to keep going and not just shy away from things that scare/worry me. You are an amazingly brave person to talk about your anxiety and I know that me an hundreds of others are extremely grateful. Thxs xxx

    • Rhiannon Hughes

      Please email me if you are struggling with anything at all at [email protected]

      I have started a blog and will be writing things about learning to love your life even with anxiety. I have had severe anxiety and panic attacks for several years, so I am proof that it can be done. If you want to visit my blog, it is… and if you are struggling with anything at all please email me at [email protected]. Please dont give me your personal info, just your email address so I can give you the support you need. The internat can be a very negative place, but I want to make a positive impact My twitter is @roohughes111

      Stay strong, it will get better xoxo

  • Chloe

    Thank you for your videos. This morning I think I just had my first Panicatack because I was just reading a offensive comments on my favourite YouTube tv review cannel, I did report them to youtube but when i was doing it I had all the symptom you described in your videos. What can i do next please?

    • Rhiannon Hughes

      Please email me at [email protected]. I would love to help you as I completely understand what you are going through. Don’t worry you are not alone. I don’t want any personal info, just your email so I can reply with support and guidance. The internet can be a very negative place, and I want to make a positive impact. I have a blog at and I also have a youtube channel: Hermione Hughes
      Don’t let the panic take over. It does not define you xoxoxoxoxo

    • Sofía Garrido

      i think the best thing you can do it’s to talk with a professional, you’ll feel better. Good luck 💞

  • Curb Anxiety

    Thank you so much for this thorough info! This is so useful for anyone who has panic attacks, and especially for their loved ones. I was suffering from panic attacks for a couple of decades (!), tried all kinds of medicines and whatever therapies but they never really helped. I couldn’t go to movies, concerts, buses, shopping, you name it. Finally I just found ways myself to get rid of the panic attacks and haven’t had them for many years now. Again, thank you for this post, I’m sure it helped many people to understand and handle panic attacks!

  • Isabella courtz

    Thank you. I have panic attacks a lot and rly bad anxiety and this helped me so much that I just want to give you a hug. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
    The worst thing is that my 3 bffs are self harming and that made me have one. To me a day is an obstacle I hate my day. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry. But you have made me stay alive. Thank you. Xox

  • Natalie D

    I just read this and it means the absolute world to me. I now know how to describe what I’ve been through and how someone can help if I or anyone else experiences one. Mine have gotten bad in the past where I haven’t left my house or I tried to push through a party or social event to make others happy when in all honesty it made it worse or people would assume i was stuck-up and didn’t wish to speak to them. In reality I’ll go to another room to distract myself for five minutes to write or snack on something simply to calm myself down. And you’re right, it definitely does not help when someone constantly asks questions or especially says things such as “talk,” “say something.” “what’s wrong with you,” etc. because that is not support. That makes me feel small and little and like i can’t do anything right….so i hope people who know next to nothing, in fact, i KNOW people who know little about panic attacks, and read this post, will grasp how bad they can be and how to help in case someone around them is having one. Thank you for this.

  • Neko Shiiro

    Hi, Zoella!

    I got to know you by reading your book (which, I must say, was amazing. Penny was not a Mary Sue, though she was sensitive, and the plot wasn’t too difficult to follow, which was great. Such a sweet novel!), and now I’ve found out that I’ve got something else than it in common with you.

    I don’t really know if they’re panick attacks or something similar, but I do suffer from some anxiety. I haven’t been diagnosed, but I can tell from the way my body and my mind react whenever I’m under pressure, or stress, or both. For example, today my mum wanted to go shopping with me, and we did. Everything was okay, until we entered the mall and I saw how crowded it was. Okay, it wasn’t as full as usual, but there were lots of people, and I started panicking. I sank my hands in my pockets, turned my music on so loud it almost hurt, and clenched my fists so hard it actually left a mark. I felt as if everyone was looking at me, and thinking, “Oh, what a weirdo”, but the worst part came when I came across some high school girls, and one of them asked me if I was okay, and if I had been crying. I realized how bad must I look to have them asking that question; I kept on thinking about it, and sinking in a pit of sadness, nervousness and self-criticising, for half an hour. Sweaty palms, shaking body, headache, fast-paced heartbeat -it’s been a living hell!

    I’d be okay with it if it was the only thing that makes me feel like this, but it’s just one of the many situations that I can’t handle. Another huge problem is the people of around my age. Especially boys. Whenever I’m walking down the street and see some teens, no matter whether I know them or not, everything starts to blur, and all I can think of as I frantically press the “Up” volume button is how bad my look is, how much they must be laughing at me, how inferior I feel. The mere thought of encountering someone younger than 30 makes me feel uneasy.

    Even exams have a huge effect on me. Whenever I have some, I have to bring a huge wool neck buff and a good coat with me, no matter how hot it is in the room, and put them on before the exam begins, because heat seems to be the only thing that calms me down a bit. I try to sink my nose in the neck buff and breathe the warm air in there, but I still shake violently, and feel my heart racing. It makes me feel pretty ridiculous, as everyone’s just chatting and I look like some Eskimo freak, but I just can’t help it. One time, a teacher asked me why had I put on my coat and my scarf, if the class was so hot that some guys had opened the windows, and I almost died.

    The worst part comes when I have this pain in my chest, and I can’t breathe. To take the slightest amount of air does hurt a lot, and I can’t even walk without feeling pain. I have to sit down, press my hands against the focus of the pain and try to calm down, sometimes adding up numbers, sometimes breathing warm air if I have my neck buff. And I can never predict when will it strike, just suffer the consequences.

    I can’t even exit my house without my headphones now. They’re like an extension of my body, as music seems to be the only thing that keeps me from running away as fast as I can whenever there’s a situation that makes me feel anxious. It’s pretty depressing. I do want to be normal, and to be able to walk around without thinking that everybody’s judging me, but fear keeps me at home :( I’ll try to follow your tips, though! Now that I know that there’s more people feeling like this, I feel less lonely.

  • lucy✌

    I had my first panic attack today and it was a lot scarier than i thought, I was in a busy shopping center with 2 of my best friends. I still don’t know what triggered it but I felt like was being silly and that i didn’t have anything to be sad about. Luckily it didn’t last long and my friends were so nice about it. It makes me feel a lot better knowing what was going on inside my body while it was happening and I can only hope it doesn’t happen again.

  • Alana

    I also have anxiety my panic attacks are not as bad but my anxiety is really bad it stops me from doing a lot of things like standing up for myself or even the little things like ordering food but to make it worse i suffer from severe depression and its not so easy to wake up every morning knowing that I’m going to have to live another day of my life. I know that you are never going to see this but i want to tell you how much you mean to me and how much you have helped me i couldn’t thank you enough

    • Steve Guarino

      Hi Alana, you’re not alone. Many of us that suffer from anxiety also feel depressed sometimes as well. I can also rate to the difficulty in getting out of bed some mornings when I was suffering from anxiety and panic. Know this, there is hope!

      I suffered a lot and for many years and eventually found natural ways to help myself heal. I recently wrote a book for others that are suffering from anxiety, stress, fear and panic called Making Peace With Panic Naturally. If your interested, let me know and I will send you a copy in Ebook.

  • Jessica Snow

    You are so amazing. Thank you so much.

  • Grace Dawe

    I get panic attacks and this has really helped me ( i think i might get my mum and dad to read it) but i have an issue. i had my first panic attack in school so now i associate panic attacks with school… It makes things difficult as moving school would not help and my parents don’t want to take me out of school. I have a person i can talk to in school but i always feel like i am putting her out of her way if i need to talk to her. I had my first panic attack when i was 8 or 9 and i am now 14 and they have got a lot worse! My head of year always tries to get me back in lesson where i feel anxious from the moment i walk in to the moment i leave and some times I have a panic attack but try to hide it so no one will comment. There is a teaching assistant in one of my most scary subjects (my classmates are loud noisy and rude and my teacher is very angry and shouty) but she is in their for another student and i am in a corner so she doesn’t see me. I find when i am out of school i have less panic attacks but i do have them is there is an issue at school or if i have fillings that need doing (this comes from a fear of injections) I think if you can leave the area where you are panicking and go somewhere quiet and calm it helps massively, especially if it is cold because the cold helps wake me up and bring me out of panic. I know that keeping some tisues is handy especially if you are like me and start crying when you panic (this ruins your mascara FYI)! I found this blog realy helped me :) xxx

    • Rhiannon Hughes

      Don’t feel embarrassed, this person would want you to talk to them and it is not putting them out of their way. I feel like this at times, but you will get through.
      Feel free to email me at [email protected]. I would love for you to feel you are able to talk to someone freely and you can do this with me, as I will not judge and I would never feel put out if someone needed help. Think of it as an advice column.
      I would never ever share your details of course, the internet can be a very negative place and I want to make a positive impact on it. Please don’t share any of your personal details, I would just love your email address so I can email back to you and help you.
      Stay strong, I am going through anxiety too so I totally get it. You will learn to love your life again.

    • Sasha Grimes

      This sounds 100% like me! Don’t give up! Do you have a place ( for me it’s called the bridge and it is a time out zone where the work comes to you rather than you go to classes) that you can go to?

      • Grace Dawe

        I like to go for a walk in the woods or to a place called roundabarrow farm.

        • Sasha Grimes

          That sounds great! Try find lots of “safe places” it makes you feel so much better! X

  • Dennis Simsek

    Inspiring success story over anxiety Zoella. here’s mine on Facebook that i’m sure will help many –

  • Ruby Abbott

    I recently did a blog post on anxiety. Take a look x

  • Lauren Leigh

    Zoe I just read your blog post on anxiety and panic attacks and I just wanted to say that you are an amazing person the post really has helped me to actually under stand anxiety and panic attacks a lot better.❤️ So thank you so much! I started getting them a couple months ago, and I never really knew what was happening. I figured out that I have anxiety which I get really badly when I’m going into a situation that I’m not familiar with. I’m starting Universety this year which has cause many panic attacks because I don’t know anyone and I have know idea where I’m going which everyone has to go through but it has felt like it been a much bigger ordeal for me and haveing the feeling of being completely overwhelmed by just about anything that is related to it. I have realised that it’s something that I’m going to have to learn to get through and not to add to the anxiety.
    I really appreciate the post so thanks again. 🌸🌟

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  • Megan

    Your blog is really helpful . I have been having panic attacks for 4 months now and I know that isn’t long but it feels like forever . I have lost a lot of friends because of this . They don’t understand . I wish they could . I have never really been confident , I am that girl in class that will never put her hand up . But now I am just so scared to do anything . Everyone at my school is talking about me say I should grow up . I wish it was that easy . The doctors were no help they told me I will have to come up with breathing techniques and that it will just be a case of trial and erro . I want to help people understand . I hope to study physiology at A level so that I can help other people like me . Last week was really tuff . I had a panic attack every day :
    During lessons
    On root to school
    On root home
    In town
    In bed
    It’s just getting to the point were I can’t cope . But thank you Zoe for reassuring me that I am not the only one

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  • Jess Spratt

    wow this is amazing. this acc so so helpful zoe. I can relate to everything in this and has helped me to think of things in a different perspective. ily so much xxx

  • Simply Houston

    Will some help me, give me advice on how to tell people I don’t feel comfortable doing certain things because of my anxiety. Nobody in school understands what I’m going through, the only person I feel I can talk to is my mum, I dont have anyone I can message, I know this is late from when the post got posted but if anyone can help it would be great x

  • Anonymous

    Recently had my first panic attack as I found out through fb that my boyfriend wants to break up with me, partially because he could not understand why I was feeling anxious at parties…feels like a sad inception

    • Rhiannon Hughes

      Your boyfriend is not worth your time if he would break up with you about something which is beyond your control
      my blog:

  • Sascha Krnic

    I recently picked up a proper anxiety disorder 3 years ago. It started when I had panic attacks from the lack of sleep I was getting and how I was having trouble sleeping (I know, stupid right?). Now it’s about everything. I recently had a panic attack when I was running late to an event and everything became too much (which ironically made me more late, making it worse). Sometimes I don’t even know why it happens but it just does. I think back to what my life was like before anxiety and it makes we wish I could go back in time.
    About a year ago, I started watching your videos, and quickly subscribed to your channel. I watched your anxiety q and a’s and I’d just like to say thank you for changing everyone’s view on anxiety and making it not be as scary as it may come across. Before I watched your videos anxiety was a scary thing for me and now I feel so much better about it. :)

    • Rhiannon Hughes

      It’s not stupid, I can totally sympathise with you there. I very often have panic attacks for no apparent reason.
      If you want to talk my blog is
      my email is [email protected]
      and my twitter is @roohughes111
      Stay strong it will get better xoxoxo

  • disqus_uJBQH88gln

    I was trying to read this post or see your video for such a long time. I was afraid that it will only make me trigger bad memories. Although I somehow did it and I’m very happy that I did. When I was 11 or 12 and I was at the camp I broke down without any reason. I was crying over and over (especially before going to sleep and at night), I was shaking and thinking about how much I hate myself because of being so weak. Even though it was almost a two weeks hell of repetitive panic attacks I stayed till the last day and didn’t give up and call my parents to pick me up. People around me didn’t know what is wrong with me, even I didn’t know that then. For next year or two I was trying to forget, I just tried to erase those two weeks from my memory. Since than I’ve been having panic attacks once in a while but not for such a long time. After living three years in fear that something like this will repeat I went to the doctor but only for one visit. I couldn’t do it again because of the panic attack before every visit. I feel like I’m trapped. Can’t stop panicking and can’t see doctor who might help me. Only two of my friends know about my attacks and I live in continuing fear of it coming back. Reading about other people having the same problems and knowing that it’s perfectly normal makes me feel better. So thank you for this post. I really appreciate it, especially because I hide it from everyone – I just don’t feel strong enough to come back to some of the memories. Sorry for such a long post but it is the first time that I say or write it in five years time and I just really think that telling this helps me. What’s more, I’m sorry for my English, I’m not from English speaking country.

    • Rhiannon Hughes

      You are so NOT weak, panic attacks and anxiety are signs of being strong for too long. You are fighting a battle in your head every single day. I have severe anxiety too, and it can happen to anyone.
      Please don’t stress yourself out, people will understand if you are stressed and anxious.
      Feel free to send me an email if you want to chat. I don’t want any personal details. My email is [email protected]
      and I am writing a blog at my twitter is @roohughes111.
      Stay strong, you’re doing better than you think xoxoxo

  • Rhiannon Hughes

    I have started a blog and will be writing things about learning to love your life even with anxiety. I have had severe anxiety and panic attacks for several years, so I am proof that it can be done. If you want to visit my blog, it is and if you are struggling with anything at all please email me at [email protected]. My twitter is @roohughes111
    Stay strong everybody, it will get better xoxo

  • Rachel MacDonald

    I had my first panic attack at a mall and I’m supposed to go to that mall Tommorrow with some friends it will be the first time I’ve been back there since the panic attack and I can’t get my mind off it and I’m freaking out and want to cancel but I know it won’t help to never go back any advice

  • Zoe Gallagher

    thankyou so much Zoe this really, really helped me. When you describes what your anxiety feels like i was just checking off everything because that is exactly what happens to me. I would just like to say that this made me think “i’m not the only person in this, panic disorder doesn’t make a like an alien where no one else understands, because there’s someone like Zoella, a famous youtuber with millions of people watching that has the exact same thing as me, making it completely ok to feel this way because looking through the comments on this blog post and your anxiety videos, you and me are 100% not the only ones dealing with this” I’m now seeing someone and they are helping me greatly but reading this has really helped me understand that it’s normal for me, a 14 year old girl to have panic disorder and in my opinion, having something a condition such as panic disorder, signifies that i’m strong, and so is every other person that has this, because we go through daily challenges to overcome this an din the end, we do and that makes us some of the strongest people. So thankyou Zoe because you are the person that helped me realize this xx – Zoe

  • Emma Guerette

    I have suffered with anxiety for a long time at a young age. I have advice specifically for Zoella, go to therapy (it helps a lot) and find a new doctor. When you pair therapy and medication it works so much better.

  • Ellie Burch

    I have panic attacks basically every science lesson but they’re like internal? Like I feel all the symptoms but I just keep it in. It’s so hard. Thank you so much for the advice!! I honestly don’t know how to deal with it as I have a huge fear of sick which doesn’t help when I feel sick – obviously most days in science. I’m having CBT at the moment and really hoping it helps!! Xx

  • Shannon Barden

    I recently watched your video on panic attacks and anxiety as lately I walk into a room full of people I know and am friends with yet feel like I am alone and can feel my heart racing. I am going to try your tips and see if they help. Thank you Zoe xxx

  • Taoskier

    I saw your video on panic attacks while looking up a phrase in a book I was reading. I heard about the book in the movie Annie Hall. Woody Allen was obsessed w death, and Dianne Keaton was complaining that he gave her books like Denial of Death. The phrase was death anxiety. And I had feelings similar to yours while my parents were watching The Tonight Show w Johnny Carson. I had just learned about mortality, and everybody on the show was laughing. I thought, you fools, you’re rich and famous now, but you’re really just a bunch of skeletons! You’ll be dead soon–that’s funny? I soon found booze helps, but only for a few years. Then every time you drink you either face a panic attack, or, if possible, come down slowly w sedatives. I quit drinking but kept a few sedatives in my pocket for years. I wasn’t phobic about areas, just some places it’s logical. Like on a ski lift. What’s better? Try to climb out 500 feet in the air, or take a couple of pills? Meds were the only solution for me. However, they are addicting and take too many, they’ll erase your brain. So, I’ll keep 1 or 2 for emergencies, and my wife keeps the rest, making sure I never take more than my MD prescribes. As people, we are liable to die any minute, and that’s not good. Worse than not knowing when is the absolute inevitability of death. I suspect this condition affects smart people more than it does idiots. If religion helps you, great. But I think there’s a little agnostic in even the most devout. I’m surprised the condition doesn’t affect more people than it does.

  • immee ❤️

    This is a very relatable and very helpful post from every angle.
    My panics started when I was on holiday at the Edinburgh Fringe with a couple of girls older than me and we were watching acrobats and I suddenly felt really sick and faint. I was fine but I just couldn’t calm down. I knew that we were going out for the evening after this with lots of people and that I couldn’t get back to the apartment; I continued to feel sick and didn’t eat for days. This totally freaked me out. I also really don’t like planes and so it happened again on the way home. Since that trip its been gradually getting worse. I have a huge fear of feeling sick. And when I go out I feel immensely sick from anxiety which means I panic when I’m out or even when I think about going out because I know I wont be able to get home quickly if I feel sick or am sick but I’m also not a typically sicky person either, like I haven’t been for maybe 4 years, so I’m not sure where its stemmed from. More recently this has gotten totally out of hand and I have had to stop school (a levels as well) and I cant really go out unless I’m having a super good day. None of my friends get it so I am just trying to get on with it but not one really knows what to do including GP and Therapists. Its like running head first into a brick wall. So if anyone has any helpful tips for overcoming emetophobia I’m willing to try anything <3

  • saher |-/

    thank you so much for this Zoe, everytime i feel sad or get a panic attack or am anxious i never know what to do and it makes things x10 worse. no one i know understands sometimes i just start crying all of sudden & i wish my friends understood i want to be happy and this wasnt my choice and i cant just “get over it” i feel less lonely now knowing there are more people like me out there and it isnt something to be embarrassed about

  • Katie McDonald

    I have just started having panic attacks there really scary and I hate them I just shiver and feel sick and from that I have missed out on some things I wanted to do glad to know you can explain this. Xxx

  • ginie

    I have a severe phobia of clowns, and I know this sounds dumb but when I was watching minions on a plane I had a panic attack, as there’s this clown guy who tries to catch them. Most people say, “oh my God, you’re such a wuss, it was just animated”. But I was surrounded by people, and I didn’t know what to do. I ended up being sick into a vase my Mum had bought for her friend. Ever since then, my panic attacks have come more frequently, especially on world book day. A girl went as a clown and she was wearing an exaggerated mask. Well her friend decided it would be a good idea to put on a clown mask and Chase me and another girl with a phobia of clowns, around the playground. Ever since then, I have been even more prone to panic attacks, and I now have a lot of phobias.

  • Blakenie Melluish

    Please reply to this if you feel similar so I can know that someone else feels the same!! Basically I’ve always been a very socially skilled person, ever since I was young. Which is why the following confuses me! I’ve also suffered with going bright red In the face at school if I were to have to answer a question or if a teacher would tell me off! But I’m certain that was just embarrassment! At the end of year 9, my family decided to move to the closer town which I then moved schools too. I had 2 friends that I had made before I had my first day as a year 10 in the new school. Luckily my new friend walked to school with me and was in my tutor too so we could walk into together. She was asking me before we were about to walk in if I were nervous, and I wasn’t to my surprise. I walked in while everyone else was already seated. My friend had found her place and I stood at the front. The teacher asked me who I was as she didn’t know I was arriving which made me knock a few confident blocks over and I started to feel small as everyone was looking at me. I had to leave and go to the office with the other ‘new girl’. We sorted our lessons out there and I headed to my lesson. I cant remember the rest of the day but it wasn’t one where I enjoyed it. My old school was in the countryside and was a remote village secondary school. Most of the students and teachers were really nice and I got on with many people. I cannot say the same for the new school I was at! I started becoming nervous before lessons after my experience in tutor. Girls started to target me for being new and I later found out because I was making friends, many didn’t like it. The friends I had made turned out to be ‘popular’ girls who also targeted me in lessons and would act like my friend at break and lunch. There was certain lessons were I’d really dread going in as they’d hold the most people that targeted me. By targeted I mean whisper mean things about me infront of me and would call me nicknames that I didn’t understand, it later grew to them throwing food at me in lessons but I would turn around and laugh with them despite me being really crushed and upset inside. This happened for about 4 months, I wouldn’t say this was bullying as people who I told would tell early on would tell me it was just girls being girls but at the time-never experiencing anything like this- it felt very much like a form of bullying. I started to become quite down at home, lost my appetite and for about 2 months I’d stay in loungewear as soon as I get home and watch child cartoons. Watching cartoons and happy youtube videos like Zoe’s made me feel safe and comforted. When I was watching these videos and shows I kind of escaped teenage school life. I started to be very quiet at school, hoping that this would take the attention of me. Any time someone would ask me a question or look at me I started to go very red and I wasn’t sure why. It wouldn’t matter what people would say to me I’d feel embarrassed and show this. I remember one of my ‘friends’ threw a skittle at me in one of my most dreaded lessons, and they started laughing and everyone was looking at me while I went bright red. I was so unsure on how to be while everyone looked at me and just wanted to hide I started looking for the skittle on the floor asking them if they wanted the skittle back, which meant more people went quiet. Hoping the teacher would rescue me she also was watching, it was a very awful moment! After this I become more and more reliant hiding in on myself, dreading the thought of a teacher asking me a question which would always make me choke up or go bright red. After many of months being upset at home and racking my brain to figure out why I would feel so nervous in lessons, go red, and have sweaty palms by the end of the hour! I thought I was so un-normal and I started to really hate myself for getting like this, I still do sometimes! At the time I was so confused why I would act like this and taken up some research, I found out I had developed social anxiety through the situations I had been in. I had done multiple tests of social anxiety all coming out with a high score and even asking others to fill it out incase everyone felt what I felt and I was just bigging something up when there wasn’t anything. But there results would always be much lower. I remember doing one and thinking how these questions I had to answer were so perfectly summing up how I felt I was relived! I also felt upset too, to think that I may have social anxiety. I obviously would much rather not have it. I was near to the end of year 10 by now and I started now and then trying to describe my feelings to other people to see if any felt the same. Many wouldn’t and a teacher overheard one history lesson and commented “oh it seems this school has given you a bit of social anxiety” after that I really thought hard on it and done much more research and finding Zoella’s videos and watching them. What confused me is I didn’t understand much about different types of anxiety and thought that I MUST be going crazy and giving myself a mental health issue on purpose as zoe would have panic attacks frequently and couldn’t get on transport whereas I was fine on transport unless people would be looking at me such as the subway or train! I was very confused thinking about how other peoples anxiety storys were so different. I can go to partys, and I do frequently, so i was very confused! I can be around drunk people and have fun-unlike Zoe, admittedly in the car on the way to the party i fully regret my decision and wish i stayed home but remind myself i will enjoy the party 20 minutes into it. At lunch and break times I really was a nervous wreck. I felt I couldn’t speak because it meant all my new friends-I made better friends that are my friends today are have become very close and are lovely!- would have to look at me, and I knew I’d go bright red. When they’d speak to me also I’d find myself going bright red, only if we were sitting down looking at eachother, I was fine if we were walking somewhere and they wouldn’t all look at me! It sounds so strange and I really was confused by it all. I confided in my younger cousin who I’m very close to and who I spent much time with. She’s someone that makes me feel very relaxed to be around and I don’t have to worry much about going red or feeling awkward if she was looking at me. After I told her how I felt and explained it to her and showed her the online tests she told me that she already knew seeing as I when I talk to people I have to fiddle with my hands and move around and not look at them directly in the eye-all signs I hadn’t noticed myself. I have mentioned to my parents(my mum and step-dad) before about it and they both are very supportive. I love them to bits and they helped me a lot within the time of my new arrival bad experience at the school, but I do feel like sometimes they may not fully understand just because they say everyone feels like this, and I’m sure they do! But I’m not too sure that sitting with my friends at lunch shouldn’t be a chore for me, as it takes a lot of effort and force to make myself sit there. As for a while I would sit in the art classroom alone listening to music eating my lunch, although I was very lonely, I felt much happy being there care-free than stressed to the max sitting with a group. I then started to make myself sit with my friends again as it started to get lonely. I only stayed at break for a while and asked if me and a friend could go for a walk round school and outside instead of sitting down. Now, I still ask to go for walks but I can stay for a whole lunch time if I want. I don’t get as nervous. As I know I can always leave if I need to. When large groups of people come past and sit with us, I instantly have to find a escape route-mainly being taking my rubbish to the bin which I save every lunchtime incase this happens- because I get embarrassed when they come over or walk by talking to us, which sounds silly! I still go to lots of partys, one very recent made me feel anxious for half an hour at the beginning as I felt awkward not speaking to many people. I’m determined as a year 11 for this not to stop me going to partys because I thoroughly enjoy them! I’m okay now and still get embarrassed or go red if anyone that I’m not fully comfortable around speaks to me but I am learning that I can’t stop that and I am trying not to let it be a barrier of many things. I just wanted to explain this all and see if anyone else felt the same! please let me know if you do! xx

  • Faye Megarity

    This is the 4th time I’ve read this now and every time I re-read it comforts me a little more. Unfortunately I to suffer from the terror of panic attacks and am still to overcome my anxiety. I have agreed to go to my friends sleepover tomorrow but sleepovers seem to be my panic place. They are the first place and the only place I’ve ever experienced a panic attack. I’m panicking just thinking about it. My best friend Eva normally helps me a lot through this stuff. But my friend didn’t want her to get upset as she wasn’t invited.
    I’m still yet to know who is going to her sleepover anyway. even though i’m really good friends with her and she’s very understanding I don’t quite know if she would understand panic attacks and how to deal with them.
    I don’t know why i’m writing this I guess I am just scared of what’s to come.
    Wish me luck…..

  • Lauren Tomlinson

    Recently, I’ve started to get panic attacks. I really didn’t know how to cope until reading this blog and watching your Anxiety Q&A so thank you so much. I don’t feel like I have anxiety because I don’t get the panic attacks from being anxious? I get them in situations that I don’t know what to do in. Yesterday, I had a really bad panic attack because I couldn’t answer a maths question, which made me feel ridiculous. I felt as if the whole class were watching me and whispering among themselves about how weird and pathetic I looked. I really needed the reassurance from this blog post and that’s what you gave me even though it’s from 2011. I don’t know why I’ve started to have panic attacks because in the past when I didn’t know what to do, the worst that would happen to me would be me getting annoyed with myself. But I’d like to thank you again for being such an inspiration. This post has really been an eye-opener for me.

  • ♡beauty_time♡

    well, I’m not sure if that’s exactly what i suffer from. im always scared of people so i don’t really go outside anymore bc the thought of being outside and somebody talking to me or raping me freaks me out.
    and it’s not only that im scared of these situations when im out or so but also when im in my room for example. i actually don’t know why i’m that phobic, my childhood was very nice indeed…
    if anybody knows what might be wrong with me then feel free to tell me.

  • Mim

    I always get anxious around alcohol and I also have slight PTSD. I had a horrible childhood and I can’t remember anything good about it. I always get anxiety attacks when people get really drunk, it just scares me so much and my mind goes crazy

  • Kathryn Green

    Can u talk more about anxiety itself coz I don’t rlly get panic attacks like u but I have anxiety attacks

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  • Michellexs

    Thank you so much zoe.. now it feels a lot more easyer to deal with it :)

  • Adel

    This has helped me with the panic attacks I get at school. I’m 13 and I have bad social anxiety. I always feel like people are staring at me and judging everything I do. This stops me from doing well at school and making my parents proud. I constantly feel like I’m not good enough and that everyone is above me. Anxiety stops me from doing thing’s I want to do and it really gets me down. Thank you for this vlog Zoe, love you bills xxxxx

  • Nony

    I was just told hours ago that I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks as I had one horrible panic attack at school, I was sobbing and I could not breathe at all, I felt like I was going to throw up and faint. It was the most horrible thing and I am really scared. I’m going to the doctor next Monday to confirm it but I really feel so sad and so insecure. I’m 16 and already am diabetic, this makes me feel so less than other people. Please help me, your blog calmed me a bit but I am freaking out.

  • Millie Rose

    I had my first panic attack last night. I’m 13 and it scared me to death. You helped me by me watching your videos and this. At first I didn’t know what was happening to me. Honestly I thought I was gonna die. It went on for 20-25 mins ish

  • Holly

    Ever since I was young I have had really bad anxiety and my parents have know about it, however recently I turned 13 and it’s been getting really bad, I have been having panic attacks. My parents don’t know because I’m to scared to tell them, I wish I could stop and just be ‘normal’. I don’t know why I just always panic and I don’t know how to stop it. I have tryed writing it down in a book and talking to my best friend about it but it doesn’t work. For some reason there’s something wrong with my brain. Thank you Zoe you have really helped I used to find that school was the scariest place in the world and I would try to stay of ill as much as possible because I was scared about panicking in class. After hearing this I’m just going to go with it, I’m going to focus on the positives and try to talk to my parents and friends about it. Thank you Zoe x

    • Jordan

      Oh my gosh this same thing with me i can relate to you Holly. It is horrible and you cant control it and no one really understands. Im also 13 for some reason seeing all these girls the same age with anxiety makes me wonder if its stress from growing up or something. idk just a thought

      • Holly

        I get where you coming from growing us seems to have just made it a hole lot worse (more stress). I’m happy to know that I’m not alone and I hope one day it will stop or at least I can maybe controle it. Thanks for replying, have you ever felt that you just want to turn the panic attacks and anxiety off, not yourself just the anxiety, so that you can be normal and enjoy you life more?? This may just be me but anxiety makes me feel trapped because really under it all I’m scared, of judgement, reality and the unknown of when it’s going to happen. I just want to be normal and be the girl who can go down to the beach or to town and not have to hide away because there scared what people will think if they suddenly have a panic attack. Sorry for all the blabbering on but l just,.. You know, you just want to let it out and talk to people who know and understand. Thanks again, Holly.

  • Jordan

    I feel a little better but i still get panic attacks. I am 13 and i first started getting them when i was in 3rd grade i would feel sick and it would get to the point where i was physically ill. Through 4th grade it calmed down and in 5th grade i got it sometimes. The first day of 6th grade I powered through, but the second day i went home sick. Going into middle school for 7th grade scared me but i made myself do it. Though school was the “vocal” point of me anxiety, in 3rd grade i would panic for no reason. This happens all the time now. If i’m out with my family in the mountains i will feel sick because i’m too far away from home if i end up getting sick. Its pretty ridiculous and it sucks because when i go on long car rides i will panic because i think too much. My parents told me its probably car sickness but i think its the anxiety levels just from pure stress. Its a vicious circle and im sure you all can understand what i mean. Right now im too scatterbrained to give all my experience and feelings but its nice to have a place where other people can understand. And a place where one of my role models understands. Thank you Zoe you made me feel a lot better just for understanding. <3

    • Holly

      I can relate to you Jordan, your sitting in class and you just suddenly panic. I used to alway try and go home early and skip school, sometimes I still do now. I would just get scared to go back into school because I thought if it happened, everyone would judge me. I havnt had a full on panic attack at school yet because I try to stay with my friend as much as possible and that helps to stay positive. I’m still scared of going into school because I can’t controle my panic attacks. But we’ve just got to face it because otherwise we never will, like Zoe sayed in her video ‘you will never get those days back’

  • Ghanima Atreides

    Dear Zoella, My 14 year old daughter suffers from panic attacks/ social anxiety, which now is turning into agoraphobia. We just started seeing a therapist but the doctor wants her to go for a walk at least once every other day. She just won’t even leave the house and when I suggest doing something she likes to do, she comes close to breaking down. Could you send her a brief message letting her know she is not alone? I’m terribly afraid that she feels so isolated and this is only going to worsen. ([email protected])

  • disqus_vU1CESk13A

    I saw Zoella’s video about panick attacks last night when I wasn’t able to sleep. I don’t sleep much.
    I was touched that she has the courage to just lay it out to everyone, being honest about it.
    That inspires me very much to do the same.
    I think I have quite the story to tell, but no one to tell it to. Or maybe I just don’t trust anyone really..

    I’ve been having panick attacks for about three years now. I also have insomnia and I also happen to be lucky to be alive at this point.
    But panick attacks.. Those were the hardest to deal with, still are.

    I think my biggest issues at that point are how I treat my condition, how I see myself. And I am never able to show how I feel, how I’m doing.
    Over the years I got pretty good at explaining how panick attacks feel like to the ordinary guy. I have my own way to explain it. And if anyone is interested I’d be more than happy to write it all down. I’ve had lots of panick attacks in front of nurses, my parents and so on.

    However after three years. I still don’t know how to respond to the question “how are you”. When I’ve had some bad days. I’ve been hiding from society saying that I have a “medical condition”. That always shuts them up. I think they imagine that I have cancer when I say that. But at least they leave me alone after. However it feels terrible to not be honest about what’s tearing you apart inside.

    And then there are relationships. How can you even be with someone when you have panick attacks? I don’t think any girl could handle being with me. For real. I don’t want anyone’s pitty. But I hardly sleep, freak out all the time. And I can’t be with someone who is always worried about me. But who wouldn’t worry?

  • Ryan Rix

    I get panic attacks when my parents go out. It’s like “Separation Anxiety”. It’s absolutely horrible. My thought pattern will get negative so negative thought of what could happen to my parents will enter my head. I’m a “what if” thinker. I do try my best to not get anxious when my parents are out and I do try to distract myself from the situation but most of the time I can’t. I always say to myself “Why can’t I be normal?” “Why can’t I be like everyone else?” And it’s a simple answer, because I can’t. This is my life and I have to deal with this anxiety everyday and have dealt with it everyday for the past 2 years. It’s affecting my life on a daily basis and it’s absolutely horrible. When my parents go out, I try to go with them most of the time, and I do because that’s the only way I feel comfortable. I don’t want to seek medical help because of the simple reason, I’m scared. I’m scared of what they will say, I’m scared of what medication I would get. I’m scared. If anyone and I mean anyone reading this right now could give me advice on how to calm these anxiety’s and panics attacks down please email me at [email protected] Thank You.

  • Lucille Florence

    Imagine yourself in a locked room. Unable to get out. No matter how hard you try, you just can’t get out. It gets smaller and smaller. I’m a teenager at school who has anxiety just like you and i feel like this every day. Everh time I do though I feel like I’ve failed the people around me. I don’t have alot of friends, but I have a lot of people who don’t like me for who I am. Because of it, I have a panic attack every week and they’re getting more frequent. I don’t like crying. It makes me look very weak and in reality I’m a very strong person. But now that all of my friends have left I have no one I can talk to or who understands. Is it my fault that I’m like this? Did I do something wrong? I’ve been dealing with these panic attacks for six – seven years now and I still feel like I’m a constant dissapointment. I want to become a journalist one day. Writing stories and expressing myself. Because of you, I actually feel like there”s a way out of this pain and frustration. I’m starting to feel like I actually belong, that I’m not one big clumsy mistake. I hope I get to meet you one day. You might not know right now how great it is to find someone who understands me but in the meantime,


  • fanofzoella.x

    I know how people feel. I was diagnosed with anxiety when I was 9 or 10 years old when I was in year 5. Now I am in year 7 and I still suffer from really really bad panic attacks. Also when I was 3 years old I was diagnosed with chronic severe asthma and again still in year 7 I still have the worst attacks possible. Going through all the training on what to do when I have a panic attack (and I was quit young at that time). I think people with out this condition should know a little about the condition just in case anyone around them is suffering from a panic attack at the time because speaking experience when we people with anxiety have a panic attack we are quit helpless. It’s like your body shuts down and panic starts to take over. Some people who suffer from panic attacks deal with there panic differently from others, because people can get different systems. I’m so glad that there are other people in the world that have this condition (not that’s it’s a good thing to have because it’s not) because then some people can understand what we go through. Thank you for reading x

  • Ellie

    I dont really know if i have Anxiety even from reading this a few years ago or even longer i had this feeling in my head everything was going fast then slowly my vision was perfect i seem to worry about tiny little things that dont need to worry about.2 Nights ago i was laying in my bed and i fell asleep but i had this really funny dream about if i clicked on something it went too fast or too slow i woke up and told my mum the next i was in a assembly i felt the same but not exactly as bad…I know this may seem like nothing to you but its a shock for me im scared if i start having panic attacks..Anyone know if i am having them?

  • Natalie Veselá

    i really want to thank you because I’m having panic attacks already a long time and reading about it on your blog helped me. i don’t know when did i had my first panic attack but i know it happens every time I’m on plane or sometimes when I’m at school or just at another few places.i know you are probably never going to read this but still thanks.

  • Katie [PB]

    I have suffered with anxiety since I was 12, I’m 14 now. I remember one of my first panic attacks, I was in Paris and I was about to go on the Tower of Terror and I was so excited as I had been looking forward to it all day, we reached the part where you can see all the elevators and everyone queuing outside them (you’ll understand if you’ve been to Disney Paris) and I started to panic, I started to think about what could happen and I started to shake, my heart was racing and I started to cry. My parents were asking me “are you okay” and “what’s wrong”. And as you said, I felt smothered. Once I had calmed down a little bit, I told them that I didn’t want to go on it and I was too scared. At this point we were standing outside the elevator door and they told me we had waited for so long and I should just do it. We went in and sat down on the chairs, and I kid you not, the only time I opened my eyes was when I could feel the wind rushing to my face when we reached a window every so often.

    I used to get panic attacks every day coming into school on our bus. Now we have a big, hot, sweaty coach and I sat near the front. I would get so anxious about going into school, part of the reason was that I was getting bullied, but it kept on happening even after that was sorted. I would get on the bus every morning and try and get through it, but I was always sick. This started happening when I was going out with my friends as well, I couldn’t go to the cinema or go to a museum/gallery or anything. After it kept on happening to me again and again, my dad and I went to the doctors, and they were no help at all, the doctor sent me to the hospital to get a check up and they said I was fine. I might add that this was all on my brothers 18th birthday party, in which I sat outside on a chair for most of it.

    What got me through a panic attack, or things I felt panicky about, is I would always tell myself that I’m excited for this, even if I did panic then I would survive. I would be okay.

  • Aesha

    Hi Zoe or anyone else reading this. I’m sorry to say that this made me feel a little worse. Not because of anything you said but more to do with the fact that I experience very different feelings and now I’m not sure if what I am suffering from is actually anxiety. I’ve had one panic attack- although it was very different because I panicked because I could not breathe and it was probably closer to an asthma attack than a panic attack. I also barely remember it which is so different to what you described. If I went back there, it wouldn’t happen again but I never want to experience one again and I haven’t. I don’t get anxious about very familiar things to me like catching the tram, talking to people I know well and school but I get overly anxious, I think, about time. This is why I think I’m very different because I only every get anxious about time sensitive things. I don’t just get a little worried, I often close off the world around me when I think of these things; I sweat, my hands shake like crazy and I barely hear anyone around me. I think you said that your senses were enhanced when you became anxious but mine seem to numb off and its just me and this feeling of overwhelming dread. It’s like my heart turns to cold stone and I’m just stuck. I guess it’s this anxiety and feeling of being trapped in a metaphorical thing; like being trapped in a time constraint or expectation from somebody whereas how you described it seemed to be that you felt literally trapped in a place. To me, often places are not triggers. Arggh this is so hard to explain in words but I’m even more confused now after reading this. A lot of the time, memories make me upset as well because I remember how happy I was then. More than enough times I’ve sat in my bathroom distraught because I remembered how much fun I had 3 years ago. The thing is, when I’m worried about something it takes my whole body over and it’s no longer just worry anymore. I think from what you’ve said, you’re not sure what you’re worried about but most of the time I know exactly what is causing the anxious feelings but I just don’t know how to stop them. I’ve been researching for a long time, trying to find someone else who feels the same but I’ve only found things that don’t really match how I feel at all. I’m thinking that maybe I just have a specific anxiety, and most likely not panic disorder because I don’t often get to the point of panic. I know you’re not an expert but I’m posting on here to see if someone else feels the same or maybe you can give me advice. Thanks :)

  • libbwy_123

    I don’t have panic attacks and I don’t have anxiety either so I cant really relate to you but I do experience something kind of similar because when I get on a boat, train or plane I can feel really anxious that something bad will happen. For example: a few months ago I watched the titanic and later on found out we were going to go on holiday again. My family was thinking of going on a cruise or some kind of boat but I really didn’t want to because I was scared that something similar would happen to me. I also don’t really feel to comfortable on trains after hearing stories of people trying to blow them up or two trains colliding. Although this kind of thing I experience isn’t the same as you I kind of understand the anxious feeling you get when you feel like you can’t escape and you don’t want to do something encase something bad happens.
    I would really like it if anyone else fells the same way as me because it would be nice to know I’m not the only one who goes through these kind of things and not being able to call it anxiety or panic attacks because they’re not.

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    When I read this story I was reminded of my long struggle with anxiety and panic attacks.

    The first time it happened, I was a young teacher having a friendly meeting with the principal when all of a sudden I felt a strange flutter of nervous energy that went all through my body and became so intense that I could hardly breathe.

    I thought I was having a heart attack. a co-worker rushed me to the doctor, who gave me a prescription and told me to go get some rest.

    For many years after that, I suffered through more and more panic attacks. It got to the point where I never felt secure or at ease anymore. In fact, I felt that any day I would end up in a mental hospital.

    When I sought help from doctors, they gave me the same knee-jerk reaction many of you with anxiety or panic attacks may be familiar with: a hasty prescription for a botle of pills. Unfortunately, those drugs did nothing about the root cause of my anxiety and actually made my condition worse much of the time.

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  • Tessa McCormack

    I find the smallest things so difficult for example I may have a small in class test and I would work myself up about it so much that I would have an panic attack just thinking about it the night before. Also how old do u have to be to go to CBT ?

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  • Rose

    Thank you for sharing your tips! I had a panic attack on a school trip will this stop me from going on any other school trips?


    Hey, I’m 14 years old and I have suffered from panic attacks for around 9 months. First of all I wanted to say that this really helped me understand why I have these panic attacks and that it’s not my fault. Only my closest friend knows about them and can usually help me as she suffers from them too, not very often but she seems to be able to deal with them really well when they do happen. I dont have many friends and find it hard to make friends (i dont think i Have had a stable friendship group for longer than 3 months). My panic attacks usually last around 10 minutes and they are nothing compared to yours but I am terrible at controlling them and usually end up sitting in a hunched up ball and crying until it’s over.
    When I was 4 years old, i moved to England from Poland and I cried, a lot. On my first months in primary school I didn’t want my mum to leave and the teachers often made my mum stay with me for a while until I calmed down however that never happened and I just carried on crying the whole day, not understanding a word of what people were saying to me. Basically, I was a stressed out kid and that kind of stuck with me as now, even as a 14 year old, i cry at the smallest of things.
    I’ll describe one of my panic attacks which I have quite often so you get an idea of what they are like.
    I am terrified of lifts and get claustrophobic quite easily since I was very little. I recently went on a school trip with only a couple of other people and we went to a university. Entering one of the buildings, we were walking kind of towards a lift and i instantly felt terrified, my heart started to beat really fast and my chest tightened up and (of course) I started crying. I was embarrassed of having to explain to the adult that I was terrified of lifts and that I had a panic attack because of that reason, feeling that people were going to judge me.
    By now I have almost learned to control them and I have taught myself a lot of reaching techniques and ways of staying calm (I too like to take everything real slow). However, I feel like my panic attacks are starting to get worse, lasting for longer that usual, being more frequent and starting to feel sick, having trouble sleeping and being really dizzy. I am starting to think that I need to get some help, or at least tell someone but whenever I plan to tell my parents, my brain tells me that they won’t understand and the worst panic attacks happens. I feel like I could deal with them a couple of months ago but I am scared that I am going to have to tell somebody soon.
    Sorry for the really long comment but if anyone is in the same situation as me or just wants to share their opinion please reply to my comment, any advice right now would be super helpful :)

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    Wow I have the same as you … for 2 years I have had panic attacks and not told anyone… This helped me so much xx yet another amazing helpful blog post love u zoella

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    i had my first panic attack when i was at school and we were making a music video. Everyone was arguing it was very overwhelming. I did not know what was happening nether did the teacher. the class was very small so everyone saw me crying and freaking out. One girl helped me through it she knew what was happening to me and she was very nice about it. Later that day i told my mom and she did not believe me and made it harder on me. Since then i heard people talking about it and a teacher asking me about it. Everyone knows, But know on understands.

  • Marianela Pereyra

    Great article and incredible tips – thanks for sharing =) People fighting anxiety conceal their anxiety and they do everything in their power to make sure people don’t see their struggle. We should try and reach out to people who feel they don’t fit in and let them know they’re not alone.

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    I’ve been suffering with panic attacks for around 2 years now, but the thing is nobody understands. I explain it to my mum and she always says the same thing “Don’t pretend to have something you don’t” and it’s horrible, knowing that she thinks that of my Panic Attacks, she thinks it’s a lie. I try to tell my siblings, but they just say something along the lines of “There’s worse things to come” and even if i know that’s the case, it’s not helpful in any way. I told my step dad, who agree’s with my mum, and now i know i have nobody to turn to. What do i do?

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    That is like the best advice anyone has ever given me about panic attacks… but then I’ve not really told that many people, only my closets friends. I know what it’s like trying to explain how you feel but people don’t understand it, I guess that’s why I don’t tell many people about them. Today your book really helped me, I was feeling so scared to go in my room because there was about 3 massive spiders in there and I didn’t want to get anyone to help me, so I went in screaming inside my head and I thought there only spiders, so I got in to bed with my dressing gown and read your book. All the way through in like 4 hours, it made realise that I don’t have to be afraid of everything and that its okay to be afraid of somethings. Thank you sooo much for everything you do, it means so much for so many people!

  • Mia

    Well it seems that not everybody has panic attacks. But even if we dont, we do need to help and respect people that do deal with this sort of thing. Even if we do not understand fully, we know its a hard thing to live with. I personally never had a panic attack, but it seems like it just overtakes your body and there is nothing you can do about it. We have to be there for people that are having them, help them get through the hard times.

  • Charlotte Maslin

    Thank you so much. This is the first article I have read (and I have read a lot!) that really makes sense.
    I can say with regards to CBT, that I have had it and found some bits useful, but overall I felt it didn’t work for me. I understand the concepts and they make sense, but I found it hard to apply, and don’t think I was offered much help in finding ways to apply. I didn’t have the best connection with my therapist though, so that probably didn’t help either. There are so many online courses now for CBT, that you can do it all for free, and I honestly don’t think it’s much different from going to see a CBT therapist. Moodgym is a great website ( and there are also loads of CBT worksheets around. I do take medication, and think that is outrageously bad that your GP didn’t take this seriously. I am on Sertraline and find it quite helpful. Although it doesn’t make it go completely by any stretch, it certainly eases the symptoms/ severity. I do find if you still struggle the Dr’s can just try and keep increasing your dose, but I feel there is a limit and I don’t like to rely too much on high doses, as weaning off it can be very difficult, and create bad anxiety (if not done properly – and in my experience, GP’s haven’t the first clue about weaning off, so I would advise anyone to do their own research).

    Thank you again :)

  • Vickie Andrews

    Hi zoe if you can reply that will be great i suffer from panic attacks aswell and mostly and school and ive tryed evreything to stop them but nothing works normaly i just step outside the classroom for a bit but do you know anything i can do that is not that inbarrising and easy thanks bye

  • Georgia May

    I’ve noticed that I get feelings of sickness on a night when it’s close to going on a holiday (even if I was okay the last time we went)…..I also had a panic attack when I was getting into the car last night….the tips in here are really useful….if anyone else has any tips please feel free to share them

  • Sarah

    This actually helped me a lot. As I am fifteen and just beginning to get bad anxiety attacks I hardly know how to control it. My mum gets them pretty awful as well, but since I have only had bad anxiety for a few years now, I have no idea how to help her when she would be having an attack. In the moment of it happening I would start to become very anxious and may had to find my own personal space so I didn’t have an attack as well. After reading this I think I will be able to not just (hopefully) control mine a little better but be able to help someone – like my mum – who has them worse than me.

    I’m glad that there are so many other people out there that feel the same way. It gets hard when I’m struggling with something (like buying something at a store) and everyone around me tells me to ‘just deal with it’.

    Hopefully this post helps a lot of other people too. Its a shame not everyone can understand. But I think that’s just the way of life, not everyone can understand everything about each other. Thank you for writing this. :)

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  • Lizzzix

    I don’t know if i’m having panic attack but what Zoe said at the “what happens during a panic attack”, i have experienced them before. It might just be because i feel sick but it happened twice this year while i’m in school. I’m now 13 and i read this blog because i wanna know more about panic attack (and because i love Zoe :D.) but reading this, i didn’t know that i have experience that before. i’m now really confused whether i have anxiety or not. Zoe had panic attack because of the party but i don’t know what triggers mine. I might need more experience with it to know if i have anxiety but i’m afraid of having panic attacks and i don’t want it.
    And to those that had panic attacks before, don’t let it take over you. I know i’m just 13 and you shouldn’t take advice from me but seriously, don’t let it take over you. (I will just stop here because i don’t want to be giving false information)

  • Dennis Simsek

    Zoella you are such a big inspiration behind the anxiety guy podcast. Health anxiety and panic attacks are so debilitating to the sufferer, and many times get unrecognized by friends and family. Keep on doing what you’re doing, great messages.

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    I want to talk to u about this send me an email… [email protected] you are a great person Zoe keep going

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    I suffer from panic attacks and anxiety and I find it hard to cope like going to a shopping center for the first time or being able to do something alone scares me but I started to say yea to more things and my friends always asked if I wanted to come,they understood I I said no and said they would always be there if anything happened and they have kept that promise. They are amazing friends and they know how to treat me if I have a panic attack but new friends don’t really understand and I have been told to say the alphabet backwards a few times by friends I’d just met who weren’t comfortable with the situation,who didn’t know what to do. I recently stepped out of my comfort zone and did something that others may not see as a big deal but is a big deal to me. So here goes it was my birthday not a few days ago and naturally I received money in cards and I wanted to spend it but I couldn’t go with anyone and mam said if I wad comfortable I could go alone. I worried about this and wrote about how I felt and sais to myself ‘you can’t avoid things forever, you’ll have to do it sometime, so why not now.’ Anyway I decided to go to the Metrocenter alone foe the first time and yes I worried and I thought I was going to have a panic attack, but you know what got me through it, it thinking that I was achieving something amazing (in my circumstances) o was being brave and I would never regret it. I made it through that day and it turned out to be one of the best days of my life. REMEMBER Sometimes it may get you down and I mean really get you down but once you get over the mountain they’ll be a great outcome on the other side. The climb up may be tough you just have to believe. I could waffle on all day about my experiences but I’ll not, I’ll just hope that this will help some other people encourage them to step out of their comfort zone and remind them that the climb is tough but things will be even better on the other side. This kept me going and I good it will keep you going to. Thanks for listening. K xxxx

    Ps Zoella thanks you helped me and you probable won’t read this but I wanted to thank you anyway.

    • Sasha Grimes

      This is so sweet! You are at the top and you are achieving lots! I would do that but every time I try for example go on my music resadential I always come back and regret it and dwell over it! Do you have any tips? X

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  • Nicole Light

    I get panic attacks but they are rare its when I am in a situation that I feel I cant get away from. I usually like to look around and observe my surroundings but when a certain person comes in the room (a person that makes me feel miserable) I look down. And I feel tingly and shaking. Then I have to tell myself to calm down and its nothing it will go away. Things that calm me down is to eat watch something funny or listen to music. Otherwise the actual panic attack will kick in. And it may take from 20 minutes to an hour. The worst one I had was at night and my whole body was sweating and shaking for a few minutes my body locked up and I felt like I couldnt breathe. It hasnt ever happenend again but Im still scared it may happen.

    • Sasha Grimes

      That happens to me all the time! Just remember if it does ever happen again you know here is so much help! Just have a scroll through this blog! OMG the comments!!! So many people and so much help just stay positive and try not to expect it, it’s worse like that! X

  • Maria Olse

    I already read your post and I´m almost crying. I´m reading you from another country and I wanted to tell you thank you for sharing your experience… i´m suffering panick attacks and anxiety and it is the worst feeling in the world… but now, I don´t feel alone anymore. Thank you!

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  • Shelby

    Wow. That was beautiful. I was actually in need of help myself. I’m 20 years old, I’ve had a nervous stomach my whole life and was finally diagnosed with anxiety when I was a freshman in high school. I’m at a stage now that I have more panic attacks than anxiety attacks and I’m not sure how to get a hold of it. Me and my boyfriend of a little over 2 years have lived together a little over a year and we had been sleeping downstairs on our couch because our bed was hurting our backs, well we finally got a new bed and of course he expected me to go upstairs and sleep with him… Problem is, is that I get these major panic attacks when things get changed or are different than what I’m used to. I always either have to use the bathroom or I vomit. And it takes a toll on me. I don’t want this to affect my relationship but I’m scared to try any meds. I was already taking elsopro or however you spell it but my dr refused to refill it for some reason. Is there any advice you could give me on what to do. This attacks have been happening since I was probably 15.

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  • Lauren Gray

    I have just started suffering from anxiety and panic attacks, I am struggling to come to terms and deal with the attacks and understanding what is setting them off, this has really helped me to try and understand and break down what is happening to me, as all I want to do is run home when an attack hits! Thank you for sharing your experiences as this has helped me to understand mine a little more xx

  • Jasmine Luff

    I think this post is amazing and may help others like me get rid of them. When I get anxious and have panic attacks i’m just like you. You inspire me in many ways. I hope you have a nice day ! x

  • Edward

    How have you guys told your friends about your panic attacks? I have a fear of sick and people being sick being hungry can bring this on. Can anyone give me advise on how to tell my friend about it?

    • Sofía Garrido

      yes!!! tell them, you’ll feel better. I’ll start the conversation with: “I have to tell you something…”

      • Edward

        Thank you sooooo much for the advise. 😋

        • Sofía Garrido

          did you told them??

  • Sofía Garrido

    Many years later (2017) I read this, but why? Well recently (I’m almost 18), I had my first panic attack, my psychologist is on holidays for a month so I really don’t know what to do. This first panic attack happened in my car while I was on a trip going to the beach (which last 5 hours). My mum and my sister were there and my cat. My cat was crying a lot. I started to shake, like if I had cold, but it was not cold, it was like ‘that thing’ you get before an important exam. I was nervous but I didn’t know why. I started to feel like I wasn’t able to breath, so I started to breathe in more oxygen. The music and the voices were very loud and I just wanted to get out of there, but it was impossible, we were on the middle of the road. So I cried a lot, I couldn’t stop, and I didn’t know (and I don’t) why I was crying. I arrived to house (which was rented) and slept for hours. I was tired, I just wanted to go home. People started to tell me “C’mon, let’s go to the beach” but I didn’t want to, I wanted to go home, to my home.
    I’m at my father’s house now, and I don’t want to go to my mum’s house, just thinking about the cat and the situation makes me feel anxious. I don’t know what to do. I’m waiting for my therapist to come back.
    (I’m from South America so I do not speak english very well, I tried my best here)
    Hope someone could give me some answers or advices.

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    so… my family thinks that my panic attacks aren’t real, what should i do?

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    I have been having panic attacks and anxiety for as long as I can remember. This has really helped me and I feel stronger than I did before. I don’t think I can do much about it because I am only 13! My parents and friends don’t understand and I do feel really odd. I know loads of people deal with this stuff but somehow I still feel like people don’t understand. I have been watching Zoe’s videos for about 5 years and she has definitely helped my confidence and anxiety. She is the person I feel I am closest to even though we have never met. I have been to scared to go out and see her because of the amounts of people there will be. I will still work on that and one day meet her. Zoe is soooooo brave and she will forever be my role model! Xx love you! X

  • I Want To Hug Zoe

    Zoe… I love you. I know I already commented on your recent anxiety update, but really… I’m still young, early teenage years, and my anxiety progresses worse every day. I’m currently having problems with my friends, who seemed to have all turned on me for unknown reasons, and they don’t seem to understand that whatever I did, I’m SO SORRY. But that doesn’t help anything at all because i’m constantly feeling so alone and like no body loves me, even though most of the people in my class can see what these girls are doing to me, and they hate it. But I really find comfort in your blogs and videos. I don’t really know what to say… Thank you <3


    Thanks so much Zoella for the video and blog. I’ve been suffering from depression since I was young, I’m 52 now. I’ve been having real bad panics attack fro a few months now. It comes in waves. In the past three weeks I’ve missed 3 days of work. I was sent home early 2 days ago and completely missed yesterday. I see a therapist now for a couple months and it helps. I also do a lot of praying and trust in the Lord to help me get through this. It helps to know I’m not alone in this. Sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy. The attacks are so bad I just want to scream. I need to get back to reading a book called The Anxiety Cure. I t explains why we have the anxiety attacks from a medical standpoint.
    My wife has been so wonderful in this. We’ve been married over 23 yrs and been together over 30 yrs. She is so supportive but I feel so guilty putting her through this. She came home early from work yesterday to be with me.
    My hardest time is when I first wake up in the morning, sometimes at 5 am. I have to get up and do something to get my mind off the anxiety I feel. I have a “daylight” lamp that I started using when it’s dark and gray out. My doctor suggested a 10,000 lux light. I try to get as much real sunlight as possible when the sun is shining.
    For me I hate being alone when I’m anxious. I’m glad I have my dog but having another human person around helps. Sorry to go on for so long. Just wanted to let others know they’re not alone in this. Have faith and trust in the Lord.

    God bless,

    Chris Vega

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  • Kasi Casillas

    This blog posts almost makes me want to cry. I’ve had anxiety and panic attacks for almost 7 years now. I’m almost 23 years old. It’s been a tough battle, but I am thankful for people like you Zoe that shed light on this topic and make it more of a norm. Thank you and sending you so much love <3

  • Taylor Westrop

    I can’t do it anymore. I keep panicking at school and I think I get panick attacks a lot. The thing is my parents don’t get it and they just act like I’m behaving badly. I had such a bad panick attack on Thursday that my legs gave way and miss Lawrence had to catch me luckily I didn’t pass it’s horrible because I can end up hyperventilating so bad that I nearly pass. The headteacher started to have a go at me saying “everyone has had enough of you Courtney and if you won’t go to lessons then go to the special centre (Keller)” I’m already scared of him and for him to start shouting was sooooo scary. I thought was actually gonna faint infront of him. I can’t go back there. I’ve been sent home twice because of panick attacks and hyperventilating to much. This isn’t as good as it sounds
    because my mum questions me she just doesn’t understand what it’s like help please

  • PineapplePie

    Hi Zoë, or anyone else who could help me. Basically I have always wanted to practice Ballet (I’m 18 btw) and today it was my first lesson and I went with my older sister who you could say is not… very nice. Everything was going okay with the class but at one point we were stretching and my sister wasn’t doing it correctly so the teacher explained to her how to do it but she just played deaf ears and continued to do it how she wanted and a guy thought she didn’t understand how (If you know her you’ll know she actually just thinks she’s doing it right her way) so he very kindly explained to her how to do it and she was very rude to him and basically told him to fuck off. The teacher told her that behavior wouldn’t be tolerated in his class to which she also was very rude and he told her she’d better stop talking or she wouldn’t be allowed anymore. After that the environment got really tense and akward and everyone stopped talking to my sister…and to me. Which I totally get because they associate me with her and they’d rather not get involved with her and btw I have social anxiety (I think I already posted here somewhere below) so I was feeling really anxious and just wanted the ground to swallow me and btw I wasn’t even sure to go because of my anxiety but I recently read Zoë’s blog “Just say yes” and I decided that this was something that I really wanted to do and I wouldn’t let my anxiety ruin it. But then, that happened in the lesson and I just wanted to crawl away from there. At the end of the class the teacher called my sister and I and told us he couldn’t have us if we were going with that attitude and I as happy as I could muster told him I didn’t have anything to do with it and that I wouldn’t be behaving like that so he let me off the hook and then my sister got really angry at me for getting myself off the hook but I did nothing so I don’t get why I should be denied this opportunity that I really wanted and it sucks for her but she brought this upon herself, no one told her to or gave her reason to be rude. After that she left and I looked for the boy because I felt really ashamed of what happened and I apologised for what happened and he said it wasn’t a big deal (thankfully) and then left and basically just cried all the way home.

    Now I don’t want to go back to Ballet not because I didn’t like the class but because my sister has ruined it for me because now no one will want to talk to me because that associates them with her.

    Can someone please tell me what to do? I don’t know what to do

  • Amy

    I’m reading this after your 2016 anxiety update and u jave improved so much YOUR AN INSPARATION to anyone anxiety or not xx love u and thanks for giving me confidence

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  • Duong Mia

    I don’t think i have panic attacks. But i get a lot of ‘breakdowns’ at night. I don’t shake or twitch or sweat or the view gets blurry. I can still see everything clearly, hear everything clearly. But I can’t control myself. It’s like someone else is controlling with me. And this break downs usually happens when no one is around. It mostly happened in my bedroom at night where my lil sister (i sleep with her) is asleep and no one is around. But it’s not like it just came with out telling. I can feel it like, building inside of me. If i don’t ‘breakdown’, I’ll faint or feel extremely uncomfortable that I can’t even sit still. And when i ‘breakdown’, I start crying. Not the kind of ‘shaking crying’. It’s more of like the tears just leaked out of my eyes. Once, I times myself. The longest ‘breakdown’ was from 15 minutes to 4 hours. It’s surely not panic attacks but i can feel the same thing. I started to get really depress, like very depress to the fact that I’ve think of how people around me hates me and they wont remember me when I die. I even think of ways to kill myself. (But I’ve NEVER SELF-HARMED OR TRIED BEFORE) if I’m lucky, it’ll end after a few minutes like so i can calmed myself down and stop myself from actually doing it. After thinking myself out of doing it, it’ll start again with the crying kicking it or if im lucky again, the ‘breakdowns’ will stop and the draining will kick in. It drains too much energy out of me that i really can’t even go to sleep. I know it sounds very weird, but it’s true. It sometimes make me stay awake the whole night with out sleeping. I tried telling my mom with giving out clues. Like when she asked me or yelled at me for going to sleep late and I told her that I couldn’t sleep, she would say that it’s because i use my phone too much or because i do something like painting my nails at night and dont go to sleep. I can’t tell her straight out because i feel like she’ll think that it’s just b.s and I’m forcing myself to it. And if she knows that i’ve think of suicide before, she’ll disown me. She always use others who committed suicide as examples. She said that if you kill yourself, it’s the most disrespectful think you do to your parents (ur parents raised you and you kill urself? No). I know this isnt really panic attacks (i actually had a panic attack once, where i actually sweat and shake and feel trap. It happened in my classroom and at first i didnt really know why. But lucky me, my art teacher was there and calmed me down. She was the best) but i feel like someone also has is like me. Please tell me if you do. I don’t want to keep being a pathetic girl who gives up. I want to keep moving on with my life but those breakdowns are draining too much energy out of me to enjoy anything.

  • Rosie94427

    I know this is extremely late, I was just wondering(if anyone happens to come across this and notice) what should I do if it’s a situation I have to go to every week and I’m going to have to for at least the next seven years, you see there’s a class I have to go to every single week for two hours and I don’t even get to drop it later on like any other class, I have to go to it until I’m 18 even though I will not use it in life and it just leads to multiple anxiety attacks, I can barely sleep the night before and people around me think I’m being ridiculous, I’ve only managed to “escape” once by asking to go to the bathroom, I ended up having a 20 minute long panic attack and anxiety after it, I returned to class after the 20 minutes and I was asked why I took so long, I just said oh I forgot that there were bathrooms in this building and headed towards the ones in the far building, I apologise I won’t do it again. I probably should of just said but I’m a quiet person so that doesn’t help it. I tend to have panic attacks when travelling (plane travel and holidays, my parents think I’m really weird and must be the only person to be terrified of going on holiday) the heat(also due to a holiday where I got heat stroke)being in high up spaces and then science class. Although it must sound really stupid to most people these places become a living hell almost (hopefully I’m allowed to use that as a description of the feeling) the holidays/travelling has become somewhat better since the issues with the class, but basically that is just swapping one issue for another. I apologize for the long paragraph and for probably wasting your time!

  • Ashley Swanson

    Zoella , I truly TRULY did NOT think that i couldn’t POSSIBLY love you anymore. well, turns out i can. i now love you the maximum amount. you are ME. seriously, i find similar things online but you SERIOUSLY. SERIOUSLY. just described every single bit and piece of me. i love you zoella, stay strong girl!!! we’re alllll here for you, and yes, you’re right, WERE NOT ALONE! your not alone and neither am i i am the same EXACT way… I HATE panic attacks and anxiety etc. with a BURNINGGG passion, BUT, knowing i’m not alone makes me feel 1000000000x etc. etc… better.

  • Lori K Bailey

    Wow. Thank you sweetie lady, for the tips on how to help someone with panic attacks. I think these tips would also benefit those with “PTSD”. Don’t you?

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  • Holly Sylvester

    I experienced a really nasty panic attack last night, the second attack in the last month with no previous history of them. Ive spent this morning reading up on what I can do to help myself manage them and what to expect- your blog was the first personal experience I have read and it’s been really helpful to add to the medical info I’ve read!
    The info on what might help me and my husband in the moment is really helpful, so Thankyou. Your story has definitely helped this new panic attack sufferer. Xx

  • Edie

    hi Zoe I’m a big fan and ur an inspiration to me! I have anxiety and I get panic attacks… but today I got the worst one ive ever had and it was horrible! It was at lunch and I couldn’t find my phone and I suddenly was really confused and angry and started kicking the wall then I fell on the floor crying and struggling to breath, everyone came rushing over but I was so embarresed and I couldn’t stop crying and I didn’t know why and after id eventually calmed down I jut hid away because I felt like everyone was looking at me and judging me but it also felt like no one cared and that no one undersood. so I researchd anxiety and panic attacks and took some quizzes and now ive been labelled with ‘severe anxiety’ and now I’m really scared that I’m going to keep having panic attacks in front of everyone at school but still no one will understand and ill be alone in a room full of people, also I feel really sick around the time my attacks happen. Anyway I would love it if you could directy give me some advice to help with my confidence and anxiety. Edie – age 13

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    Heya zoella :) just so you know cbt is great but the only reason it is suggested and so published is because of the research behind it… other types of counselling is not easy to provide research for funding hence why it’s not actually suggested as much. I would honestly suggest long term therapy by an intergrative BACP accredited counsellor or psychotherapist! Usually a relational counsellor is good too :) hope that helps x

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  • mollie copeland

    If I have just had a crying fit or anxiety attack (crying fits are more common) I can’t stand people talking to me even if they are trying to help. I can act really mean afterwards due to this, also I can’t explain why I want to be alone to them as I would still be panicky and am vulnerable to another attack/fit. Really the main reason why is I need to be alone so I can gather my thoughts and calm down with nothing to distract me. Music also helps but I mainly have attacks in school so I would have to wait until lunch or after school to listen to it. That is why I prefer being alone.

  • Milky Way Blogger

    Still reading this post – always find myself going back to it. Thank you for posting this – you have helped so many people in different ways. Thank you Zoe xxx

  • Hey Zoe,

    I had my first panic attack today / it wasn’t what I thought it was (literally I thought it was an asthma attack ). I’m so scared to fall asleep , the only thing I can do that keeps me sane is reading , blogging and drinking cups of tea .
    It was in my science room – I hadn’t felt as good as I usually would for nearly a week , and that was when it happened .
    I’m scared to go back into that school and room in case it happens , what should I do ?

    – A Hint Of Burgundy// Megan x

  • Hi Zoe. I know your post is almost 2 years old but I salute you for describing anxiety and panic attacks according to your experience. It’s good that you are trying your best to overcome it. I am also suffering from anxiety and still trying my best to manage. I also appreciate you for trying to reach out to others about this. We are on the same boat. I also want to share to all readers about one site that has also helped me: It might also help others. We all have our different ways of coping and I hope others will never stop trying all other techniques in order to manage and cope with anxiety. Hope you are all okay now and still keep on sharing the helpful information about anxiety.

  • Taylor Dubinski

    Dear Zoella,
    I first read your article about panic attacks two months ago. It helped me so much. I am eighteen years old and just started Uni. I have had severe social anxiety and constant panic attacks since I was fifteen. I had my first major panic attack during school and was absolutely mortifed . Your article has helped me so much. It allowed me to see that I am not stupid or weird and I even decided to go off to Uni instead of commute.

    Thank you so much.

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  • Mia Cheetham-Hill

    I’m 15, I’ve experienced panic attacks since I was 13 and they all started because I was severely depressed and I began self harming, I remember one panic attack severely, I had cut myself and it was bleeding a lot. I freaked out, panic attack after panic attack for about 2 hours, home alone with no one to speak to until I finally did tell my friend who got her boyfriend to call me (because she said she couldn’t handle it??) and since then, I’ve had more but none as bad as that. Honestly, they are the most awful things and I’m on medication for my problems and I have CBT too, but they’re not really helping. I’m sorry, it gives me anxiety just writing this


    yes I had an anxiety Attack because I was vaping too much I didn’t know what hit me I was just at the computer vaping, and then I started to feel dehydrated and then my throat began to feel like was closing up! I stood up, I started feeling like I wanted to pass out! heart was racing, I felt all of the symptom! luckly I had a friend of mine with me to talk to me and calm me down! it was really scary! I live alone so whenever it happens again, and I’m by myself I use my panic away audio to help calm me down!! it really works! like seriously!! when my panic attack happened again I thought I was going crazy but I downloaded that panic away and it really helped me! and it was free out!!

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    i want to share a testimony of my life to every one. i was married to my wife Kate ERRAND, i love her so much we have been married for 5 years now with two kids. when she went for a vacation to France she meant a man called James who en charm her with his handsomeness, she told me that she is no longer interested in the marriage any more. i was so confuse and seeking for help, i don’t know what to do until I met my friend Miss Claire and told her about my problem. she told me not to worry about it that she had a similar problem before and introduce me to a man called Dr Moonlight . who cast a spell on her ex and bring him back to her after 3 days. Miss Claire ask me to contact Dr Moonlight. I contacted him to help me bring back my wife and he ask me not to worry about it that the gods of his fore-fathers will fight for me. He told me by three days he will re-unite me and my wife together. After three day my wife called and told me she is coming back to sought out things with me, I was surprise when I saw her and she started crying for forgiveness and that she never knew what came upon her that she will never leave me again or the was the spell that was casted on her that was working on her. Right now I am the happiest man on earth for what this great spell caster did for me and my wife, you can contact Dr Moonlight on any problem in this world, he is very nice, here is his contact [email protected].

  • Emma Camire-Cameron

    Hi Zoe!!! :)

    You have no idea how much I appreciate your openness, positivity and kindness. I have so much respect for you and your courage in sharing all the things you have been through. It’s helped so much to calm me down and show me that I am supported and I don’t have to be alone in handling my anxiety.

    I noticed I was constantly feeling really anxious around year 8 or 9, when school was starting to become more and more stressful. I thought it was a relatively normal part of reaching secondary school; I thought I was just stressed. It got to the point where I was having panic attacks while out with friends, in school, on the bus, in shops, while playing sports, and more. Around then, I realized that given the decline my mental health had taken in the past couple of years, this was probably anxiety. I began to recall being a little kid and doing things like crying (or being on the verge of tears) every time I needed to ask the teacher to go to the washroom; it might sound trivial, but it made me feel so anxious. Even now, I’m in sixth form, and I get incredibly anxious getting out of my seat and asking the teacher to use the washroom.

    Last year I was having panic attacks all the time, and for awhile I just dismissed them because I thought panic attacks were only actual panic attacks when I was nearly hyperventilating and couldn’t breathe, which is not true. I started doing my best to take care of myself, to recognize my anxiety for what it was and to try to push myself out of my comfort zone in ways I still felt safe, like going out to some shops for a couple of hours with a friend who knew how to help me during a panic attack.

    In the past few months I haven’t really done this, and it wasn’t until today that I really realized it. There is a lot going on in my life right now, with school and work and friends and family, and I haven’t really bothered to pay myself much attention. Today at school, I had a couple of hours of just back to back to back to back panic attacks, where I had hot flushes, a sudden migraine, rapid breathing and heartbeat, I felt incredibly dizzy and nauseous, terrified, and like I needed to get out of there as fast as I could to somewhere quiet with fresh air. It wasn’t helped by the fact that, in my confused and terrified state, I accidentally got on the wrong bus to come home, where I had another panic attack.

    All in all, today was a fiasco and it felt exhausting and terrifying, but it helped remind me that I need to recognize my anxiety and try to work through it so I can do more amazing things and live the amazing life that I hope to have. Every time I feel stressed or panicked or feel an attack coming on, I find this blog post and read it over carefully. It always helps me calm down and feel less alone, knowing that others, including the person I look up to most (you!!! :) ), have been able to do amazing things and continue to fight their anxiety. Reading this blog post and the comments below, the strength and courage you and others have shown inspires me every day. Thank you so much for sharing your experience with anxiety, I am so grateful for your kindness, positivity, and resilience; you have shown me that I am supported and can face my anxiety with a strength I wasn’t sure I had. :) :)

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    Even though it seems like a panic attack just happens to you there is always a reason. Most likely you’ve experienced something traumatic in your life or are dealing with allot of stress.

    I’ve dealt with panic attacks for years without knowing what the reason was. Now that I do know what the reason was, they stopped.
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  • Daniele Merkov

    Hi guys. I just wanted to ask if any of you tried using medical marijuana for anxieties and migraine? I’ve been suffering severe anxiety for almost a year now and been given a prescription for Benzodiazepines for my medication. But i heard alot of people telling me that marijuana helps relieve anxiety but im not im not sure if its true so i came up to search something about this idea and came across this marijuana strain from it says that i can discard all forms of stress and its euphoric buzz it delivers often is useful in combating anxiety and depression. I wanted to hear your thoughts about this guys and if you can give me any tips that can help me with my anxieties. Thank you!

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  • abbie stribling

    This really helped me. While reading this blog I was having a small panic attack about dealing with people at school tomorrow. I have bad anxiety and its hard to deal with it when you feel like your alone when your surrounded by lots of people, and having no one there to understand what your going through. I have had anxiety and depression since I was 9 when my parents broke up(now 14), they broke up and got a divorce because my dad cheated on my mum, when she found out she yelled at my dad and my dad abused her while me and my siblings were sitting there(yes we saw everything, I was 9, my brother was 7 and my sister was 5). as I’ve grown older, and had boyfriends I get anxious because I think that every boy will do what my dad did. I get bullied about my parents and other stuff as well which has made my self esteem drop lots. people tell me to go to my safe place when I’m like this but I don’t know if I have a safe place anymore. it used to be my athletics club but recently I’ve been having panic attacks from all of the pressure that has been put on me. people also say to me” get over it because people out there have it 10 times worse than you” but its not that easy to get over depression and anxiety at the same time when your feeling like you have no one to talk to. I am scared to go anywhere because I’m scared someone might bully me or my anxiety and depression might kick in. also lately my dad has been really abusive to me so I’m now scared to be alone with my own father
    I hope others can relate to me so I don’t feel as ashamed and scared. and if anyone has any advice please help me out…

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